He ran his hand down between my breasts and I all but orgasmed right there. I had never had this part of my body touched by someone else before. Not even through clothes, so the closeness of his wet skin touching my skin was the most intimate thing I had ever experienced. Kane kept his eyes on mine as he lowered his head to my chest.
When his mouth connected with my nipple my body bucked and then shuddered, and the water rippled around us. I had never experienced anything quite like this before. I could feel the tingling in my belly growing. Is this possible? Can this alone send me over the edge?
My question was answered about two seconds later when Kane raked his teeth across my nipple and my body exploded into a million different pieces. My head fell back as I called out his name to the night sky.
Kane kissed me deeply as I came down from my high. Little did he know but the slow strokes of his tongue against mine was only working me up again. I wasn’t sure I had any control over my own body anymore. It wanted Kane. It wanted what my head wasn’t sure it was ready for, but what my heart was screaming it needed.
I reluctantly broke away from Kane’s lips. He first looked at me as though he wasn’t sure if he had done something wrong. I mustered all the courage I could and whispered. “I want it to be you, Kane.”
He slowly closed his eyes before responding, “Kelsey, baby, please don’t say things like that. I’m not worthy of that. Believe me.” He reopened his eyes and I could see the turmoil swirling within them.
How could he not see how perfect he was? How could he not realize that, to me, his past and his reputation didn’t matter? All those people could think what they wanted about Kane. I knew the truth. I knew he wasn’t that person anymore. That alone was all I needed to know that I was meant to be here, in this water with him right now. Our lives had been so riddled with sadness and ugliness that we were destined to find each other. I felt it in every fiber of my being that this was right.
“Please, Kane, I need it to be you. Before I met you I was a shell of who I used to be. I wanted desperately to find her again, and you have helped me do that. I know that it’s not a mistake that we are here, in this moment right now, together.” I placed his hand over my heart so he could feel how strongly it was beating. “You feel that? You make it do that. When my mom died I never thought I would be able to breathe again, let alone have my heart beat again, but then I met you and you stole that last amount of breath I had and breathed a new life into me. You are a part of me now. This is right, please don’t question that.”
Kane let out a low growl and attacked my mouth again. I felt his hands slide under my knees and began to pull my legs away from his waist. I was about to protest but he didn’t drop my legs and put me down like I thought he was going to. He swung my legs together and cradled me in his arms, carrying me like a husband carries his wife over a threshold after they have been married, out of the water.
When he made it to the shore I thought he was going to set me on my feet again but he kneeled with me in the tall grass and he used his hand that was wrapped around my back to spread his shirt out before gently laying me back on it. His scent that clung to his shirt engulfed me and I knew I would remember this smell for the rest of my life, and it would always bring me right back here, in this moment with him.
He lightly kissed my lips just once, then held himself above me with one hand using his other to caress my cheek. “I need to know you are one hundred percent sure about this. I will never be able to forgive myself if you are not sure.”
I cupped both his cheeks in my hands. “I am.”
He nodded and leaned in to kiss me, but pulled away at the last second. “Kelsey, I don’t have anything. I wasn’t expecting this.”
I couldn’t believe I had forgotten to even think about protection. In the moment of passion, all I could think about was him. I thought for a minute. I had been on the pill since I was sixteen to regulate my periods. So I knew we would be safe from pregnancies, but I knew that Kane had slept around. His reputation had said so, and he had told me himself.
“I am on the pill so there are no worries there, but I have to ask, have you been checked before? You know, since you have, um, done this before?” I felt like a bitch for blurting it out there like that, but I had to be sure.
He nodded. “I have never, ever, touched a girl without one before, but a few weeks after I had stopped sleeping around I had myself checked just to be sure and it came back clean. You’re the first person I have been with in a while.”
It made me happy to know that after he decided he wasn’t going to be sleeping around anymore that he was willing to do this with me. I was so worried about what my body and I wanted that I never really thought about the fact that I could have been pushing Kane into something he wasn’t ready for. “Kane, I know I am sure about this, but are you? If you don’t want to, that’s completely fine.”
He barked out a laugh. “Kelsey,”—he looked down to where his underwear was fully tented—“is that sure enough for you?” He gave me his full-dimple smile and I bit my lip and nodded. The smile slipped from his face as his eyes zeroed in on my mouth.
“You really shouldn’t bite your lip like that.” he said huskily. “I can’t think straight when you do, and right now I need to calm down and take my time with you. I don’t want to hurt you, Kelsey, in any way, physically or mentally, but this will hurt.” He looked at me, a hint of sadness in his expression.
I knew this was going to hurt. I had heard stories and read books about girl’s losing it for the first time, but I was going to be going through this with Kane. I could deal with the pain as long as I had him. My heart fluttered at those last words and I knew it was because those words held more meaning than just about tonight.
I pulled my knees up around Kane’s hips where I could grab the hem of his boxers between my toes and gave them a little tug. Obviously they didn’t come down, but Kane took the hint and reached down between us, pushing them down himself before settling himself between my legs. I lifted my hips, letting him know I wanted him to do the same to me. He sat back on his knees and ran his index finger along the inside band of my panties. My back arched and eyes fluttered. My body was humming all over with anticipation of what was to come.
Kane used that index finger he was teasing me with to slowly pull my panties down my legs. As soon as they were free from my feet Kane covered my body with his again, shielding me from the night breeze. He slowly wrapped his hand around my knee and pulled it up over his hip. He then, ever so lightly, ran his fingers up the outside of my thigh, continuing up to my side. His hand brushed against the side of my breast as he made his way down the inside of my arm until he got to my hand. He interlocked out fingers and brought that hand above my head.