Getting the chance to drive Jacob's 'baby' should have been a momentous occasion. I'd fallen in lust with the Maserati the moment I saw it. With its smooth lines, contours and an engine that you could feel vibrating all over your body, I often imagined what it would feel like to wrap my hands around the steering wheel. To feel the wind whipping my hair as I set the asphalt on fire.
Instead, when he handed me his keys and opted to drive my Sonata, all I felt was an aching wariness. Apparently Alicia Whitmore ‘didn’t do sports cars’. She looked even less thrilled about riding in my sedan.
I watched Jacob ease his mother into the passenger seat then slide behind the wheel. I took a few steadying breaths and started the Maserati, following their car to Alicia’s hotel.
Before you think I'm the worst, I was thrilled when she made a quick recovery. The doctor said she was practically at a hundred percent and green-lit her discharge from the hospital. I couldn’t have been happier--for both human decency and selfish reasons. Selfishly because it meant Jacob could spend more time at home instead of the hospital. And I had compassion for the woman and was genuinely glad that she'd recovered after the heart attack and was doing well enough to be released.
It didn’t change the fact that I had an unsettling feeling at the bottom of my stomach. Her clean bill of health also meant she was doing well enough to make good on her promise to give me and Jacob ‘the best wedding since the royal affair’.
Our definitions of 'best' differed. Mine wasn't prestigious enough to put in history books. I just wanted something small and memorable because it focused on me and Jacob. Alicia's concept called for an army of people. From her rumblings as she ignored the doctors pleas to take it easy as she plugged away on her Mac, she was going to fix the national economy crisis with our ceremony alone.
She hired Lindy Alistair, one of the most prolific (and expensive) wedding planners in the States, who'd been ferociously corresponding with Alicia since she paid her monstrous fee. I had to grin and bear it through conference calls, nodding hesitantly as they came up with the concept for the wedding. A concept that I’d been trying to escape since Jacob and I first started dating:
A Cinderella Story.
The only thing we'd agreed on was that we didn't want it held in a church. They'd decided to do it at Greenwald Gardens instead, a historic, Victorian house just outside the city with acres of lush green landscaping and marble statues that screamed money. Lindy called it ‘delightfully luxe’.
I’d only seen pictures online--and I hated it.
As we eased onto the bustling street, angled toward Alicia's hotel, I kicked myself. Not literally, but mentally, I was bruised from head to toe. With every smile, every nod, every lie, I dug myself deeper in a hole, suffocated by regret. I was dreading my own wedding. It was supposed to be the happiest day of my life and I was scrambling to pick a date so I could start a countdown until it was over.
"What's wrong with you?" I said aloud, the scold echoing through the empty car. I didn't bother with a response because it would be a little strange having a conversation with myself and also because I knew the answer. Jacob was worth billions of dollars. Small and simple wasn't in his dictionary. All eyes were on us, everyone and their mama already verbally affirming that he'd downgraded by choosing me. If we didn't have the huge affair that all the gossip magazines and shows were hinting at, completing the Cinderella narrative they'd created--
They? Them? Why are you listening to everyone but you? And Jacob? It is your wedding, right?
But that wasn't exactly true. Jacob was a public figure. And as his fiancé, his future wife, so was I. That meant whether I liked it or not, the public pinned their hopes and dreams on us. It was the price of fame.
We pulled into the valet lane in front of Alicia’s hotel and I almost laughed as the valets practically rock/paper/scissors-ed for the chance to drive the Maserati. I opened the door and handed them the keys, a tiny part of me annoyed that I didn't even enjoy the likely one and only time Jacob would let me drive it.
I barely had time to dwell on the rueful moment because Alicia was beaming, holding out her elbow for me. Like we were old friends about to go on a friendly stroll.
My eyes darted to Jacob and he sent me a silent order.
Behave.
I took her arm with a smile and glared at Jacob over her head.
We stepped inside and the concierge was waiting, a bubbly girl that didn't even look old enough to have such a job, complete with blond hair and a Valley Girl accent.
"Mrs. Whitmore, I did as you asked and let the photographers camped out hear me say that you'd be staying with your son.” She was practically giddy with excitement. “They cleared out almost immediately!"
I glanced at Alicia who was smiling conspiratorially with the young woman. "Thank you, Delilah." She looked back at me and winked at my surprise. "This isn't my first time at the rodeo, dear."
It made sense that she’d know the old bait and switch play. At the height of his fame, Carlton Whitmore was sure to have had photographers hounding him and his family. I was only known as an extension of Jacob and now that we were engaged I could barely get a cup of coffee in peace. To have any privacy, any sense of normalcy, one had to get creative.
More than surprised I was impressed that she’d thought ahead and worked something out with the hotel staff. Her misdirection was genius and we didn’t have to deal with flashing cameras on top of everything else.
I stopped in the lobby, waiting for Jacob.
Alicia shook her head, her salt and pepper bob swishing. "We can head on up to the apartment. Lindy is waiting."
My eyes bulged. "What?"
"There's so much to be done," she explained, dragging me in the direction of the elevator. "If you want the ceremony as soon as possible as you’ve stressed on several occasions, we have to set everything in motion."
Just tell the truth! "Um--” I racked my mind for something, not sure she could handle the truth. She’d just been hospitalized for crissakes. “Should you be doing anything strenuous?"
She gave me a look before punching her floor button. "It's wedding planning, not a 5K."
Classical music spread through the silence as I stood there, silently freaking out. I was glad the elevator didn’t stop for other passengers because I was pretty sure I'd explode if I had to move one inch.
This was too much. I had to say something--or it really would be too late.
The doors parted and I didn't realize I was still standing inside the elevator until she said my name.