She had changed into shorts and a T-shirt when she had gotten home from work, and he stroked his hand appreciatively over her bare thighs. “What about you? Anything interesting happen in the accounting department?”
She snorted. “Get real. The most exciting part of the day was when a man called, irate because he had been charged an overdraft fee on a bad check when he had been a customer of the bank for years.”
“Bet that got the old ticker revved up.”
“I almost fainted from the stress of it all.” Marlie sighed and climbed from his lap. “I’d better see what’s in the kitchen if we’re going to eat tonight.”
“Want me to go out for something?” he offered.
“No, I’m not in the mood for takeout. I’ll think of something. Why don’t you just sit here and read the newspaper? You look as if you need to unwind a little.”
He definitely agreed with that assessment, and went into the bedroom to change out of his sticky, wrinkled clothes. Marlie poked around in the refrigerator and cabinets before deciding on chicken stir-fry. She was glad Dane had gone along with her suggestion, because she needed more time by herself. He was so intuitive that he would soon figure out that something more than the situation was upsetting her, and she didn’t want to be around him until she had herself more under control.
She hadn’t been paying much attention today when the head of accounting had been talking to the irate customer, trying to explain and soothe without backing down, but suddenly she had been overwhelmed by frustration and anger. Startled, she had automatically looked around for the source, and only then realized what had happened. She was picking up the department head’s emotions.
She had quietly panicked, sitting frozen in her chair and trying to shut out the flow of emotion. To her surprise, it had stopped as abruptly as it had started, though the conversation behind her had continued.
She didn’t know if she had succeeded in blocking it, or if her ability to read people was merely sputtering to life again. Either way, Dane wouldn’t like it.
She knew that he viewed the visions differently, that he didn’t see them as a threat to his privacy. But if her ability to read people returned in full force, she didn’t know if Dane would be able to accept it. He hadn’t liked being the target of clairvoyance, which was not, and never had been, her major talent. If he knew that she could read him at will … he would probably leave, even though she had promised that she wouldn’t invade his privacy. She had to face that likelihood. Dane cared for her, but she doubted that he cared enough to stay under those circumstances. It wasn’t anything new; people had always been uncomfortable around her.
The decision not to tell him had been easily made. She didn’t know what was happening: if her abilities would return in full force, if she would recover only a portion of her former capability, or if she would be even stronger. She hoped it wasn’t the last possibility, for if her empathic powers returned stronger than before, she would have to move into an underground bunker to find any peace. It was a certainty that Dane wouldn’t share that bunker with her.
She felt as if she were living in limbo with him. There had been none of the customary courtship stages, no getting to know each other. They had been thrown together in a crisis, had first been adversaries, then, abruptly, lovers. They had never had a discussion about their relationship, whatever it was. He had simply moved in, and she had no idea what to expect. After the killer was caught, would he simply return to his own house with a blithe “See you around” or—or what? If circumstances had been normal, the logical step, the one she had expected, would have been for him to spend a few nights each week with her.
She needed emotional security. She could bear anything if she had a solid foundation to fall back on, but she wasn’t certain she had that with Dane.
It was silly, considering that she was living and sleeping with the man, but somehow she couldn’t bring herself to ask him outright what his intentions were. She admitted to herself that she was frankly afraid of hearing the answer. Dane wasn’t a man who would prevaricate; he would bluntly tell her the truth, and she wasn’t ready for that. Later. Everything had to wait. After this was all over, then she would be able to handle anything he said, even if it was exactly what she didn’t want to hear.
She had fallen in love with him, but she didn’t fool herself that she knew all about the kind of man he was. For all their physical intimacy, he kept a large part of himself private, safely secluded behind an iron wall. Sometimes he watched her with a silent, intent speculation that was almost frightening, because she couldn’t read any desire in his eyes during those times.
What was he thinking? More important, what was he planning?
The media were relentless. The phones in headquarters rang endlessly. Reporters camped outside the chief’s office, outside the mayor’s office, outside police headquarters. Both uniformed and plainclothes officers began taking evasive action when entering or leaving the building, going to extraordinary lengths to avoid the hassle.
Even worse than the media were the crank calls that began pouring in. Hundreds of people in Orlando suddenly recalled suspicious persons skulking around Dumpsters and storefronts. People with grudges found revenge by phoning in anonymous tips, accusing the person they disliked of being the killer. Every night officers investigated panicked calls of a prowler in the house, but most times it was nothing. Several mothers-in-law turned in their daughters’ despicable husbands, certain that the lazy bastards were guilty of all manner of unspeakable crimes. The hell of it was, all of it had to be investigated. No matter how wild an allegation, it had to be checked. The uniformed officers were run ragged, worn down by the sizzling heat and neverending demands on their time.