She felt oddly...calm, now that her decision was made. The first thing she would do was take care of dispersing that two million dollars, because if she got killed before she did anything then the money would just sit there, not doing anyone any good. St. Jude's could always use the bucks, and she would be helping sick kids. There. Decision made. It was so easy she wondered why she'd wrestled with the problem for so long.
Her second decision was that she would never be free as long as Rafael was alive. He would keep the assassin hunting her, and in the meantime he himself would keep on bringing drugs into the country, ruining lives, killing people, while he raked in the dough. She couldn't let him continue.
She'd been a coward when she lived with him, making sure she never looked deep enough to find any hard evidence that could be used against him, deliberately ignoring the opportunities she'd had to discover more about what he was doing. She hadn't wanted to know, and as a result she had no knowledge she could take to the FBI that might result in his arrest. Rafael had the money to fight the legal system, anyway; even if he was arraigned, he could keep the case dragging on in court for a long time.
But she knew him, knew the brutality he hid under his three-thousand-dollar suits and designer haircut. She knew his ego, and the rules of the world he lived in. If he actually saw her, if he knew she was alive and right under his nose, it would drive him nuts. He might lose all sense of caution, because his machismo couldn't tolerate letting her go. He'd stop at nothing to kill her.
The FBI might be able to keep her safe. She hoped so, but with a sense of fatalism she accepted that they might not. One way or another, though, she had to do what she could to stop Rafael, to break up his business. This, then, was the cost of her new life-and the price might well be her life.
Chapter Twenty-five
AT FIRST HE THOUGHT SHE HADN'T SEEN HIM. RATHER, he knew she'd seen him, but he thought she hadn't recognized him. He'd gone to his car immediately, swearing at himself for being so damned stupid as to stand outside knowing a lightning flash could expose him at any minute. He'd felt compelled to watch her, though, and in the end the temptation had been too strong; she'd been laughing, and he'd realized how much he wanted to hear her melodious laugh again. So he'd stood there for a minute, and the next thing he knew a sheet of lightning lit up the night and she turned to look out the window.
The parking lot was lit, but the rain had seemed to absorb a lot of the light and he'd parked in a deep well of shadows between two rigs, in the area normally used only by the truckers. He could still see in the windows, though; that and the area of shadow were why he'd chosen that spot. He lowered a couple of windows just enough to let in some fresh air and keep the windshield from fogging, then sat in the dark and watched, waiting to see if she ran, but she had gone back to work and for a little while he'd let himself think she hadn't recognized him. Then his instinct kicked in; did he want to take that chance? The answer was a definite no.
He hadn't wanted her to ever know he was watching her, watching over her. She was terrified of him, with good reason. The one thing he didn't want to do was frighten her again, or cause her more pain. Now he thought he probably didn't have a choice. He had to see her, let her know she had nothing to fear from him, before she ran again.
She couldn't get away from him, unless she jettisoned the phone and the SUV at the same time and he wasn't able to pick up her trail, which was unlikely. But she'd wear herself out running, and she wouldn't let herself settle anywhere. Drea was a woman who needed to settle; she needed a home, and friends, a life where she felt safe and normal. He didn't want her to live in fear; he didn't want her thinking she had to run for her life.
What would she do, when she left work? Would she immediately rabbit, or would she continue to act as if she hadn't seen him, hoping to fake him into relaxing his guard? The second choice would take iron nerves, but she'd panicked before, and had the accident. He couldn't let himself forget, ever, how sharp she was. She'd learn from her mistake, and she wouldn't do the same thing twice.
He bet she'd go home. She'd probably sacrifice the Explorer, leaving it sitting in the driveway while she packed a few clothes and walked away in the wee hours of the morning. She would keep a supply of cash handy, just in case she had to leave everything on short notice, because she planned ahead.
He checked the time. It would be a couple of hours yet before her shift ended, and he didn't want to leave the rental car parked on her street for that length of time, or this early in the night. People were still up, still watching television. Lights would begin winking out as soon as the ten o'clock news went off, because these people, by and large, weren't part of the Leno and Letterman crowd. That was when he would move in. For now, he was in a good spot to watch and wait. If patience was a virtue, then he had at least one to his name.
At ten-thirty, he chose a moment when she had her back turned before starting the car and pulling out of his shadowed parking space. When he got to her house, he parked down the street and walked back. The rain had slackened to a drizzle, which allowed him to wear the concealing slicker but meant he had to be careful about dripping water anywhere she might see it.
She normally used the front door; she left the porch light on there, and she was protected from the weather. The kitchen stoop was uncovered, a bare and exposed two steps of crumbling concrete. The steps were already wet, so dripping on them wouldn't matter. A storm door protected the inner wooden door from the elements, and it was locked. He had it open in five seconds. The inner door had a simple doorknob lock, the kind that wouldn't keep out a ten-year-old, and opening it didn't take as long as opening the storm door. He let himself in, removed his wet slicker and put it in the tiny laundry area just off the kitchen, then he mopped up the water he'd tracked in.