I gave him a wary nod. "What is the question?"
He reached up to his cowl, black leather against twilight purple, and drew back the hood a little, enough that I could see the gleam of one dark eye and a rough, thin grey beard against bronzed skin. I couldn't see his other eye. His face seemed to ripple and contort in the shadows, and I had an idea that he was disfigured, maybe burned. In the socket of the missing eye, I saw something silver and reflective.
He leaned down closer and whispered near my ear, "Has Mab chosen an Emissary?"
I struggled not to let the surprise show in my face, but I'm not always good at hiding my feelings. I saw comprehension flicker in the Gatekeeper's shadowed eye.
Dammit. Now I understood why Mab had been so confident. She'd known all along that she had set me up for a deal I couldn't refuse. She'd done it without breaking our bargain, either. Mab wanted me to take up her case, and she seemed perfectly happy to meddle in a supernatural war to get what she wanted.
She'd just been toying with me in my office, and I'd fallen for it. I wanted to kick myself. Somewhere out there was a village I'd deprived of its idiot.
In any case, there was no sense lying to the guy whose vote would decide my fate. I nodded to him. "Yes."
He shook his head. "Precarious balance. The Council can afford neither to keep you nor to cast you out."
"I don't understand."
"You will." He drew the cowl back down and murmured, "I cannot prevent your fate, wizard. I can only give you a chance to avoid it on your own."
"What do you mean?"
"Cannot you see what is happening?"
I frowned at him. "A dangerous imbalance of forces. The White Council in town. Mab meddling in our affairs."
"Or perhaps we are meddling in hers. Why has she appointed a mortal Emissary, young wizard?"
"Because someone up there takes a malevolent amusement in my suffering?"
"Balance," the Gatekeeper corrected me. "It is all about balance. Redress the imbalance, young wizard. Resolve the situation. Prove your worth beyond doubt."
"Are you telling me I should work for Mab?" My voice sounded hollow, tinny, as though it was trapped in a coffee can.
"What is the date?" the Gatekeeper asked.
"June eighteenth," I said.
"Ah. Of course." The Gatekeeper turned away, and sounds returned to normal. The Gatekeeper joined the rest of the Senior Council, and they trooped back up to their podiums. Podii. Podia. Whatever. Goddamned correspondence course.
"Order," called the Merlin again, and the room grew quiet after a reluctant moment.
"Gatekeeper," the Merlin said, "what is your vote?"
The silent figure of the Gatekeeper silently lifted one hand. "We have set our feet upon a darkling path," he murmured. "A road that will only grow more dangerous. Our first steps are critical. We must make them with caution."
The cowl turned toward Ebenezar, and the Gatekeeper said, "You love the boy, Wizard McCoy. You would fight to defend him. Your own dedication to our cause is not inconsiderable. I respect your choice."
He turned toward LaFortier. "You question Dresden's loyalty and his ability. You imply that only a bad seed can grow from bad soil. Your concerns are understandable - and if correct, then Dresden poses a major threat to the Council."
He turned to Ancient Mai and inclined the cowl forward a few degrees. The Ancient responded with a slight bow of her own. "Ancient Mai," the Gatekeeper said. "You question his ability to use his power wisely. To judge between right and wrong. You fear that DuMorne's teaching may have twisted him in ways even he cannot yet see. Your fears, too, are justified."
He turned to the Merlin. "Honored Merlin. You know that Dresden has drawn death and danger down upon the Council. You believe that if he is removed, so will be that danger. Your fears are understandable, but not reasonable. Regardless of what happens to Dresden, the Red Court has struck a blow against the Council too deep to be ignored. A cessation of current hostilities would only be the calm before the storm."
"Enough, man," Ebenezar demanded. "Vote, for or against."
"I choose to base my vote upon a Trial. A test that will lay to rest the fears of one side of the issue, or prove falsely placed the faith of the other."
"What Trial?" the Merlin asked.
"Mab," the Gatekeeper said. "Let Dresden address Queen Mab's request. Let him secure the assistance of Winter. If he does, that should lay to rest your concerns regarding his ability, LaFortier."
LaFortier frowned, but then nodded at the Gatekeeper.
He turned next to Ancient Mai. "Should he accomplish this, it should show that he is willing to accept responsibility for his mistake and to work against his own best interests for the greater good of the Council. It should satisfy your concerns as to his judgement - to make the mistakes of youth is no crime, but not to learn from them is. Agreed?"
Ancient Mai narrowed her rheumy eyes, but gave the Gatekeeper a precise nod.
"And you, honored Merlin. Such a success may do much to alleviate the pressure of the coming war. If securing routes through the Nevernever places the Red Court at a severe enough disadvantage, it may even enable us to avoid it entirely. Surely it would prove Dresden's dedication to the Council beyond a doubt."
"That's all well and good," Ebenezar said. "But what happens if he fails?"
The Gatekeeper shrugged. "Then perhaps their fears are more justified than your affection, Wizard McCoy. We may indeed conclude that his appointment to full Wizard Initiate may have been premature."
"All or nothing?" Ebenezar demanded. "Is that it? You expect the youngest wizard in the Council to get the best of Queen Mab somehow? Mab? That's not a Trial. It's a goddamned execution. How is he even supposed to know what her request was to begin with?"
I stood up, my legs shaking a little. "Ebenezar," I said.
"How the hell is the boy supposed to know what she wants?"
"Ebenezar - "
"I'm not going to stand by while you - " He abruptly blinked and looked at me. So did everyone else.
"I know what Mab wants," I said. "She approached me earlier today, sir. She asked me to investigate something for her. I turned her down."
"Hell's bells," Ebenezar breathed. He took the blue bandanna from his pocket and mopped at his gleaming forehead. "Hoss, this is out of your depth."
"Looks like it's sink or swim, then," I said.