“Here and there.13 Cocobolo isn’t just one island, you see. We are all Cocobolo. But I am your father.”
“I’ll believe you if you can prove it,” said Zheng. “What were the last words you said to me?”
“Come and find me,” said the voice. “And don’t let grass grow under your feet.”
Zheng fell to his knees and wept. It was true: his father was the island, and the island was his father. The caves were his nose and mouth, the earth his skin, the grass his hair. The gold filling the pit Zheng had dug was his blood. If his father had come here seeking a cure, he’d failed to find one—and so had Zheng. He felt desperate and hopeless. Is this what he was doomed to become?
“Oh, Father, it’s awful, it’s awful!”
“It isn’t awful,” his father replied, sounding a bit injured. “I like being an island.”
“You do?”
“It took a bit of getting used to, of course, but it’s infinitely better than the alternative.”
“And what’s so bad about being human?” It was Zheng’s turn to feel insulted.
“Nothing at all,” his father said, “if human is what you’re meant to be. I myself was not meant to be human forever, though for many years I couldn’t accept it. I fought hard against the changes that were overtaking me—and which are also overtaking you. I solicited the help of doctors, and when they proved useless I sought out distant cultures and consulted their sorcerers and witch doctors, but no one could make it stop. I was unutterably miserable. Finally, I couldn’t take it anymore and I left home, found a distant patch of ocean in which to live, and allowed my sand to spread and my grass to grow—and heavens, it was such a relief.”
“And you’re really happy like this?” said Zheng. “A smudge of jaguar-infested jungle in the middle of the sea?”
“I am,” his father replied. “Though I admit being an island is lonely sometimes. The only other Cocobolo in this part of the world is a tiresome old crank, and the only humans who visit me want to drain my blood. But if my son were here alongside me—ah, I’d want for nothing!”
“I’m sorry,” said Zheng, “but that isn’t why I’ve come. I don’t want to be an island. I want to be normal!”
“But you and I aren’t normal,” said his father.
“You gave up too soon, that’s all. There must be a cure!”
“No, son,” said the island, letting out a sigh of such force that it blew Zheng’s hair back. “There is no cure. This is our natural form.”
To Zheng this news was worse than a death sentence. Overwhelmed by hopelessness and anger, he raged and wept. His father tried to console him. He raised a bed of soft grass for Zheng to lie on. When it began to rain, he bent the palms so that they sheltered him. After Zheng exhausted himself and fell asleep, his father kept the jungle cats at bay with frightening rumbles.
When Zheng woke in the morning, he had moved past hopelessness. There was an iron will inside him, and it refused to accept the loss of his humanity. He would fight for it, cure or no cure, and if need be he would fight to the death. As for his father, just thinking about him made Zheng unbearably sad—so he resolved never to think of him again.
He gathered himself up and started to walk away.
“Wait!” his father said. “Please stay and join me. We’ll be islands together, you and me—a little archipelago!—and we’ll always have each other’s company. It’s fate, son!”
“It’s not fate,” Zheng said bitterly. “You made a choice.” And he marched off into the jungle.
His father didn’t try and stop him, though he easily could have. A sorrowful moan rose up from his cave mouth, along with waves of hot breath that swept across the island. As he wept, the boughs of trees shivered and shook, releasing a soft rain of rubies from their branches. Zheng, pausing here and there to scoop them up, filled his pockets, and by the time he’d reached the cove and rejoined his ship, he’d collected enough of his father’s tears to pay all his men’s salaries and fill his empty coffers back home.
His men cheered when they saw him, having thought him killed by jaguars, and on his order they reeled up their anchor and set sail for Tianjin.
“What about your father?” his first mate asked, taking Zheng aside to speak privately.
“I’m satisfied that he’s dead,” Zheng replied tersely, and the mate nodded and asked no more about it.
Even as Cocobolo receded into the distance behind them, Zheng could still hear his father weeping. Fighting a powerful swell of regret, he stood at the bow and refused to look back.
For a day and a night, a pod of minke whales rode the Improbable’s wake, singing to him.
Don’t go.
Don’t go.
You are Cocobolo’s son.
He plugged his ears and did his best to ignore them.
During the long voyage home, Zheng became obsessed with suppressing the transformation that was happening to him. He shaved his feet and trimmed the seaweed growing from his armpits. His skin was nearly always dusted with the fine, powdery sand that his pores exuded, so he took to wearing high collars and long sleeves, and bathed every morning in seawater.
The day he arrived home, even before going to see his wife, Zheng went to his surgeon. He instructed the man to do anything necessary to halt his transformation. The surgeon gave Zheng a powerful sleeping draught, and when Zheng awoke he found that his armpits had been filled with sticky tar, his skin covered in glue to stop up his pores, and his feet amputated and replaced with wooden ones. Zheng regarded himself in a mirror and was filled with revulsion. He looked bizarre. Still, he was grimly optimistic that the sacrifice he’d made had saved his humanity, and he paid the doctor and hobbled home on his new wooden feet.