A flush was added to whatever glow Paul was referring to—the temptation to look back at the man a block down became impossible to reign in, knowing he was the reason for the glow. To preoccupy my eyes, I glanced needlessly at the neon-lit clock in the back above the jukebox. I already knew how much time I had left; twenty-five minutes and counting.
“What happened?” he asked, as he crossed his arms over the table and leaned forward. The stiff orange leather sleeves of his letterman’s jacket rustled in the process.
I’d practiced my speech and replayed it in my head several times this morning, so I was prepared. I was just opening my mouth to begin my oration when a waitress approached our table, her eyes barely glancing at us.
“What can I get you?” she asked huskily, and with an edge that suggested she resented the thousands of times she’s already had to ask this question in her life.
“Ladies first.” Paul gestured to me, with an expression on his face that led me to believe he thought himself quite chivalrous all the sudden.
“I’ll have a lemonade please.”
“I’ll have a chocolate toffee malt and”—he glanced over the laminated menu—“Would you share some chili-cheese fries with me?” he asked.
“Sure,” I said, knowing my time limit would probably be up by the time they arrived.
The waitress scratched down our orders and left without another word. Two minutes had gone by.
Paul lifted his eyebrows in expectation, so I commenced, “I trust you, Paul. Do you know that?”
His eyes sparkled at my confession. He nodded.
“I came to see you today so I could tell you the truth, but I don’t want anyone else to know.” I fixed my face into a stone of graveness. “You cannot tell anyone I’m still alive.”
His nose wrinkled in confusion. “Why? I don’t understand. Your friends, the university, the community . . . everyone thinks you’re dead. They’re in pain, they’re mourning for you, and here you sit.” He threw his arms in accusation my direction. “Why would you put them through this? Why do you want to continue to put them through this?”
I interrupted before the frenzy in his voice continued its escalation. I was sure the hostess was already straining to listen in on our heated conversation as she stood behind the counter, feigning focus on rolling silverware into white dinner napkins.
“Shhhhhh!” I hissed at him. “Control yourself or I’m walking out that door right now,” I threatened through my teeth.
He took a couple deep breaths and the ruddiness in his cheeks—that had screamed its alarm as fast as an expensive car—started to dim. “Okay, I’m under control now.” He cracked his neck. “But please, explain.”
Content he wouldn’t pop a vein in his neck (at least immediately), I began.
“Everything just became too much—my past, school, life in general. I wasn’t who I wanted to be, or living the life I wanted to live.”
A twinge of hurt played at the corner of his mouth.
“I know it’s extreme, to say the least, but I needed a full break from everything and everyone. Changing schools, or taking up a hobby, or even intense counseling”—I said, mixing in a laugh to lighten the mood—“wouldn’t have been enough. I needed the opportunity to start a new life.”
“But you’re here with me,” Paul said quickly, leaning forward.
“And?” My eyebrows creased in confusion.
“You just said you needed a complete break from everyone and everything, but you’re here with me now.” His eyes were twirling with ribbons of hope.
I internally cursed at myself for not foreseeing this rebuttal from him. Leave it to Paul to find the silver lining.
“Why?” he urged, still eager.
Saving your life— is that reason enough for you? I thought acridly.
I couldn’t tell him the truth though, so I’d have to let him believe whatever he wanted. “I care about you, Paul.”
The look on his face broke my heart, because I knew I’d never be able to reciprocate that look. William had been more right about Paul’s feelings for me than I had. “I saw in the paper about all the search parties you had looking for me. I didn’t want you wasting your life looking for someone who doesn’t want to be found.” I had to look away from his face as the reason for my meeting registered—I was not here for the reason he’d hoped for.
I continued, with fifteen minutes left. “I respect you enough to tell you the truth. I owe you that.” He cringed and turned his head to stare out the window.
I was thankful for the interruption of the waitress returning. She placed a tall glass of lemonade in front of me and Paul’s malt in front of him. She padded away as quickly and silently as she’d arrived.
I took a long sip from the straw, stalling for a few more seconds before I could brave continuing, “This is the last time we’ll ever see each other. I came to say goodbye.” A knot was forming in my throat, making my words come out all ragged sounding. I hadn’t expected this to be so difficult, but I’d bet on the fact that Paul was nothing more than a friend . . . perhaps a friend with a crush. But as I saw a very human tear materialize in the corner of his eye, I knew how far off I’d been.
“You have to disband the search parties and stop looking for me. You’ve succeeded in your mission having found me alive as you suspected, so there’s really no need to continue.” The smile I tried to reassure him with felt ridiculous.
He brushed his hand quickly over his eyes before turning his head back to me.
“Succeeded?” His eyes narrowed in disbelief. “You call this a success?” His voice was magnifying with every syllable. “Sure, here you are—still kicking and breathing—but I will never see you again, and you’re telling me I can’t ever tell anyone the truth. Do I have this all right?” His head was shaking, and his hands were balled into trembling fists. He reminded me of the way Dr. Jekyll would look before convulsing into Mr. Hyde.
“You do,” I whispered, hoping to influence his volume with mine.
“Well . . . crap, Bryn!” His fists beat down on the table. The hostess’s eyes jumped to us. “I don’t know if wondering if you were decomposing at the bottom of the Pacific Ocean, or believing this BS you’re feeding me now is worse.”
The harsh words he spoke were less furious, but more desperate, as if he was trying to hold onto something that could not be held.
“Paul, please,” I begged, eyeing the overly-curious spectators.
Our waitress appeared again—oblivious, or not caring about our explosive conversation—and set down a couple of appetizer plates and a steaming platter of chili-cheese fries.
Paul had a moment to gather a breath and decompress before the waitress left.
“What are you going to do?” he finally whispered, sounding defeated. Concern now colored his face.
For the first time since our meeting, I smiled with genuineness. Paul’s concern for my future, despite my crushing blow, touched me.
“Anything I want.” I smiled wistfully, knowing already what I wanted. “A fresh start.”
My momentary lapse into dreaminess alerted Paul. “Does this have anything to do with him?” The hints of a revelation were showing on his face. “Did he make you do this?” he asked, seething through clenched teeth.
“Who?” I questioned, keeping a level innocence in my tone.
He smirked at me. “You know who. I told you he was after you, Bryn—that he was a real creep,” he was shouting again, his voice breaking over every few words. “Why didn’t you listen to me?”
Now that he’d come to the conclusion for my rejection of him, he was not going to let it go. He was so certain there could be no other reason than William, as to why I would go through such extremes in my quest for a new life. It made me furious, and I almost questioned why I was going through such great efforts to protect this jealous, immature boy in front of me.
“You’re being ridiculous—I’m leaving.” I glared at him through the glassiness that had formed over my eyes.
“Leave then!” He fumed, thrusting his arms in the direction of the door.
At that moment, the waitress magically reappeared, a tall glass pitcher of lemonade in one hand. Oblivious to me exiting the booth, she reached the pitcher over the table to fill my empty glass. I continued to slide out and just as I turned to stand up, Paul lashed his arm across the table, grabbing my wrist.
“No, don’t go.” His arm also hit the waitress’s arm, sending the glass pitcher falling from her hands.
“Let me go!” I screamed at him, at the same time the pitcher came in contact with the table and shattered into hundreds of jagged pieces, spewing lemonade everywhere.
Neither Paul nor I were hardly aware of what was going on around us; we were only focused on glaring intently in each other’s eyes and not letting the other have their way.
“I mean it, Paul,” I warned, remembering my new strength. I wondered if it would stand its own against a man known for benching nearly three hundred pounds.
“Let me go,” I repeated. I pulled my wrist away from his hand with force this time, and to my surprise, it came out far easier than I’d expected. The downward pressure I employed when pulling against him sent my arm careening into the glass shards covering the table with unequivocal force. The table groaned its protest and I heard the splintering sound of particle board when my arm crashed into it.
“Ouch,” I whined, more as a knee-jerk reaction than actually due to any pain it had caused. I’d felt a quick shot of pain—what reminded me of when I was Mortal and when a nerve would suddenly make itself known through a quick, single shot of pain—noticeable, and not exactly pleasant, but certainly not anything to get worked up about.
I was busy shooting a final glare at Paul while launching myself out of the booth, when Paul’s eyes fell on my newly freed arm. He gasped. “Your arm . . . I’m sorry.” He turned his head to the shock-faced waitress. “Go grab a towel or something!”
I followed his petrified stare to my arm. There was blood—quite a bit of blood, actually—flowing from my arm. Wasn’t I an Immortal now? Didn’t this come with freedom from cuts, bruises, scraped knees, and BLOOD?
My arm began shaking as I carefully lifted it off the table, attempting to rotate it so I could examine the damage.
From out of nowhere, he was there.
“Bryn,” he said with controlled alarm.
His voice was all the healing my body would ever need; my oozing arm was instantly forgotten. William reached for my arm gently and pulled it to him. His button down shirt was already removed and was being skillfully wrapped around several deep gashes that were oozing crimson blood. “Are you alright?” he asked, trying to hide the worry in his voice. He finished wrapping my arm, and then raised his hands to my face. “Bryn?” His eyes were drowning in their worry.
“I’m alright,” my voice quivered. “It was an accident.”