His eyes are big, as if he’s seeing a different side to me and it’s taking a moment to sink in. “Or you me.”
I hold out my arms and he falls into them. Things got intense, but he didn’t shut me out. I’m beginning to associate this selfless behavior with Blake. He’s always concerned for what’s best for me. But what about what he wants? I have to try harder to be the girl he deserves. Not the crybaby who can’t get over her past mistakes.
Starting with soft kisses of forgiveness, I work my mouth from his neck to his jaw. Breathing in his woodsy scent helps me to relax and re-awakens my need.
He runs his hands from my bottom to my shoulders, his hands worshiping with their touch. He treats my lips like they’re breakable, molding his to mine with the pressure of a butterfly wing. Tentative, allowing me to set the pace, he doesn’t push. Fire flames deep within, and the urge to lose control threatens to overtake me.
I dip my tongue into his mouth and moan into the slick, welcoming warmth. His hands flex against my h*ps as I move in a sensual rhythm. Pleasure zaps through my nerves with every unhurried slide.
Realization floods my senses. What Blake said last night is true. I can feel it now. This isn’t just sex; this is something bigger.
Rolling me to my side, he hitches my leg to his hip. “I promise I’ll go slow.”
My answer is in my kiss. I trust him.
He slides into me, slow and sensual. Long pulls followed by deliberate thrusts, as if each movement proclaims his promise. He’s not giving up on me.
Intense and unrelenting, my orgasm builds. I dig my fingernails into the firm muscles of his backside, pressing him closer, desperate for more. He breaks the kiss, panting, his face screwed tight. I pull his lip between my teeth. Please. He groans, a light sheen of sweat on his chest. He’s holding back, and it’s killing him.
“It’s okay.” My h*ps move on their own, attempting to draw in what he’s holding back.
He shakes his head, his breath coming faster, his grip tightening against my thigh.
“Please. I want it.”
With a slight recoil, he grimaces and shakes his head.
What can I say to get him to understand?
“Blake.” Cupping his jaw, I lock my gaze on his, and I’m met with his tortured emerald stare. “I trust you.”
His movements still, and he scrutinizes my face. With a shove off the mattress, he rolls me to my back. Hips pinning me down, his huge shoulders loom over me, and his arms lock me in. My heart hiccups with memories that melt away before they materialize.
Blake would never hurt me.
He flexes his h*ps and groans. “You okay?” His voice cracks, heavy with emotion.
“Mm, so good.” I grip his backside, urging him on.
He rears back and pushes forward with a little more force. Tingles of pleasure race up my spine. I moan and tilt my hips, taking him deeper. Again, he rocks into me, studying my response. I wrap my legs around him, locking my ankles behind his massive thighs. His movements become stronger, his powerful body unleashing all he’s been holding back in too-slow increments.
Leaning down, he nips at my mouth. I push up and suck his upper lip, then his lower. He collapses on top of me and takes my mouth hard. I meet every thrash of his tongue with a flick of my own. A growl bubbles up from his throat, and I swallow it down.
“Fuck, this is heaven.” His movements are more determined.
“Blake…”
“I know.” He kisses me again, hard and possessive.
Perfect.
Overwhelmed by the sensations of his powerful body commanding mine, and the patience he takes in caring for my feelings, I shed my inhibitions and toss caution aside. Lifting my hips, I meet his movements with a grind of my own.
“God, yes. Like that.” His heavy breath heats my overworked lips. He doesn’t look away from my eyes, and he picks up his pace.
I bite my lip. “I’m… it’s… Oh, my—”
A burst so big, beyond anything I’ve ever experienced, bows my body off the bed. A fervent cry explodes from my lips, the sound so powerful it bounces off the walls. Shards of euphoria explode from my core and race down my limbs.
His muscles tense, and he buries himself deep, groaning into my neck. I run my fingers through his cropped hair, holding him to me. The soft suction of his lips tug at the sensitive skin below my ear. Goose bumps race down my arms. Boneless, my legs fall open, and he drops his weight to cover me.
It’s hard to take a full breath, but I don’t care. Pressed into the bed with him on top of me, cradled between my legs, and our bodies still connected—I’ve never felt more protected. I’m floating, the burden of my shadows lifting as hope settles in.
All too soon, he rolls to the side, allowing me my first full inhale.
“Holy shit,” he says, out of breath.
Unable to move my soggy limbs, I turn my head toward him. “Yeah.”
He faces me. “Fuck, look at you,” he whispers. “Even better than I thought.”
“What did you think?”
“That you’re f**king gorgeous. That right when I think you can’t get any sexier, you do.” His fingers trace my cheek. “So damn pretty.”
I swallow against the lump in my throat. “You too.” I feel so much more, oh how I feel, but words fail me.
He kisses my cheek, lingering for a second before turning away. I sit in silence while he disposes of the condom. Crawling back into bed, he pulls me to his side, my nak*d body flush with his. “Talk to me. What are you overthinking?”
I giggle at his assumption. “I’m not, actually.” For the first time in a while. “But, I was thinking about work. It’s going to be impossible to not touch you when I see you there tomorrow. How are we going to play this so we don’t get caught?” I trace figure eights through his six-pack and smile at the goose bumps that follow my fingertip.
“Get caught?” He chuckles. “What’re we, twelve?”
“I read in my contract something about inter-office relationships. I didn’t pay too much attention, but I remember it was discouraged.”
“Shit, if Gibbs enforced that, he’d have to fire himself ten times over.”
I push up to rest my chin on his chest. “No way. With who?”
“Most of the Cage Girls, a few female fighters, and his last assistant.”
My eyes are wide, unblinking. “That’s unethical.”
“Not our business. But don’t worry about anyone raising hell about us. Besides, no way I’m not touching you at work. Shit. Impossible to keep my hands off you.”
I shiver and rest my cheek where my chin was.
This is happening. He’s confessed to feelings, I’ve done the same. We’ve had sex twice without any major breakdowns… on my part. Work’s covered. I need to talk it over with Elle, but she’s crazy about Blake. As long as she’s on board, there’re no more obstacles. I’ll have a boyfriend. A healthy, adult relationship.
And for the first time, the idea isn’t terrifying.
Blake
Nothing has ever felt this easy. Her head on my chest, her nak*d body pressed in tight, her finger tracing patterns on my skin—all of it is so new, but at the same time, completely familiar and as easy as blinking. I’m comfortable with her in a way I’ve never felt with anyone before.
We lie in silence, pressed together with the blood still thumping in our chests. Damn, I don’t want to move. Not an inch from this position, and I’d be content. Her stomach grumbles against my side. Clearly, biology won’t allow that.
“Hungry?” I run my fingertips up and down her spine.
“Yeah. I’m in the mood for pancakes.”
I grin at the longing in her voice. “There’s a great place not far from here. Best pancakes in town.”
“Mm, that sounds good. But, I don’t have a bra, remember?”
“Shit. How could I forget?” I squeeze her tight, remembering the warm heavy weight of her breast in my hands just minutes ago. “I think I might have some breakfast stuff here. How ’bout I make you breakfast?”
“Now you’re talkin’.”
Reluctantly, I let her go so she can pull on her clothes. I make no move to get up, and enjoy her body as it moves, her skin flushed from sex. Hot.
She searches the floor for something she can’t seem to find. Her eyes meet mine. “Where are my socks?”
“Don’t need ’em, Mouse. It’s hot as hell in here.” In more ways than one.
“My feet are cold.” She continues her search.
The memory of my first visit to her apartment, wearing those damn pink socks on her feet, flashes in my mind. What’s up with the cold feet?
“Your feet, but not your legs?”
She shrugs, a blush creeping into her already flushed cheeks. “Yeah. It’s weird, I know.”
I throw off the sheet and head to my dresser. Grabbing a pair of sweatpants for myself, I tug them on then open my top drawer for one more thing.
“Here.” I hand her a rolled up pair of my favorite socks.
She tucks her hands in close to her stomach and looks at my offer like it’s alive.
I laugh and push them to her. “Socks. Take ’em.”
“Oh, I don’t want to take your socks, if I could just find mine. Do you remember—”
“I want something of mine on you.” Whoa. What the fuck? But… yeah. That’s true. My woman’s feet are cold, I want to be the one responsible for making them warm.
Her lips part, and her eyes are wide. She’s silent.
“You gonna go statue on me or put the socks on so I can make you breakfast?” I shake the socks at her again.
She reaches out and grabs the rolled cotton. A slow smile spreads across her face. “The socks.”
“Good choice.” I lean in and drop a kiss on the tip of her nose.
She tugs the socks on and up to her knees. “Mmm, these are super cozy.”
I grab her hand, needing the feel of her skin on mine, and lead her down the hall.
In the kitchen, she doesn’t sit at the bar while I cook. She’s in there with me, moving around, while we laugh and joke about anything and nothing. I make coffee while she mans the griddle. Her outfit looks just as cute on her tight body this morning as it did when she stormed my door last night. And infinitely better now that she’s in my socks. I always thought women looked their best done up in tight clothes and freshly made up faces. I was wrong.
Her eyes catch mine, and a tiny smirk on her lips says that she knows what I’m thinking, and she likes it. Yeah, I’m definitely getting her nak*d again before she leaves.
I grab my supplements and stir together my morning concoction.
She flips four pancakes then turns to me. Her gaze falls to the myriad of jars and canisters on the counter. “What’s all that?”
I hold up my shaker-cup. “Shake. Doc’s orders.”
“Prescription shake?” She grabs the glass jar of liquid drops and brings it close to her face, squinting. “Do you know what any of this stuff is?” Her brows pinch together as she reads the fine print. “Theobromine? Nicotinamide Adenine Din—I can’t even pronounce that one.”