He didn’t. Why the fuck should I?
I yank him up by his arm and throw him against the wall.
“She said no, asshole! Are you deaf?” Then I wrap my hands around his throat.
It’s soft. Weak. So easily breakable.
And I squeeze.
His eyes bulge and he claws at my hands. But it’s as effective as the brush of a butterfly’s wings.
“Jake, please don’t.”
Chelsea’s hand is on my shoulder, and her voice is soft. Pleading. “Don’t, Jake. Please stop.”
She feels like a harbor, steady and calm amid churning dark, deadly waters.
And so I stop. Not because he deserves it.
Only because she asked.
I release him and the dickhead slides to the floor, coughing and bleeding. I pant, glaring down at him, my heart beating brutally in my chest. I grab his jacket from the chair—mindful enough to take the keys from the pocket, because he reeks like a brewery—before throwing it at him.
“Get out,” I growl, sounding as savage as I feel.
He wipes his bleeding face with his jacket and glares up at me with hateful, unrepentant eyes. “I need my keys,” he rasps.
Dumb fuck.
“No. You can sleep in your car. When you’re sober in the morning, then you can take your sorry ass elsewhere.”
He actually opens his mouth to argue, but I don’t let him.
“Two choices. Sleep in the goddamn car, or end up unconscious in the hospital. I know which one I’d prefer.”
And it’s not the car.
He looks over my shoulder at Chelsea, and I bristle that even his gaze is touching her.
“Do what he says, Lucas. Nikki and Kevin will be up in a few hours. Then you can all go.”
With a final glare, he walks, hunched over, out the door. Which I slam behind him.
• • •
I turn the lock and the bolt to make sure he stays the fuck out. Or maybe to make sure I don’t go out and kill him. My hands shake, my whole body still vibrating with barely restrained fury—and something else that I don’t want to put a name to.
From behind me, Chelsea’s voice trembles. “I can’t believe Lucas tried—”
I whirl around like a roving volcano and erupt all over her.
“Of course he fucking tried! What the hell did you expect? You thought he flew across the country for a hug and a peck on the cheek?”
Arms hug her waist tighter. Her voice goes quieter. “I thought he was my friend.”
“The naïve thing is cute, Chelsea—being a goddamn idiot is not.”
She rears back like I’ve raised my hand to strike her. “Excuse me?”
Unfamiliar feelings bubble inside me like black tar, coating my insides, thick and clinging.
And ugly.
“Your friend?” I laugh. And drag my eyes up and down her body. “You dress like that for all your friends?” I click my tongue. “Lucky guys.”
Her voice rises an octave. “There’s nothing wrong with how I’m dressed.”
My questions slice through the air. Sharp and cutting. “Are you drunk?”
“No.”
“Are you high?”
“No!”
“Have you fucked him before?”
“That’s none of your business!”
My mouth twists. “That’s a yes.”
“Don’t cross-examine me!”
“Do you know what could’ve happened to you if I wasn’t here?” I yell, forgetting about the six sleeping children upstairs.
Because that’s the core of it, what has me craving murder. What makes me want to put my fist through the wall—or, more accurately, makes me want to grab that worthless piece of shit outside and put my fist through him. It’s the unspeakable things that might’ve happened to her if I anyone but me had been here.
I’ve looked into survivors’ eyes. I’ve seen the aftermath. And, sure, maybe they move on. And maybe they get past it. But they never forget.
And they’re never, ever the same.
“Yes, I’m well aware, Jake. Contrary to what you think, I’m not stupid. I’m grateful that you were here.” Her voice goes from flat to cold. “And now you can go.”
I point at the door. “I’m not fucking going anywhere as long as he’s outside.”
“Fine. Enjoy the couch.”
Then I’m dismissed. Chelsea turns around, her back as straight as a soldier’s, and walks toward the hallway. After three steps she looks back, and her words hit me like a wrecking ball. “I see now why you’re such a successful defense lawyer, Jake. You’re so very good at blaming the victim.”
For a second I just stand there. Too stunned—maybe too ashamed—to reply.
She walks up the stairs, and I’m alone. With the echo of all the things I shouldn’t have said ringing in my ears.
12
Five minutes later I’m in the kitchen, rummaging through cabinets and drawers like an addict who’s forgotten where he hid his stash.
And I’m muttering to Chelsea’s dead brother.
“Come on, Robert, I’ve met your kids.” I check the back of the fridge, moving aside a jug of almond milk, a block of tofu, and a bag of organic pears. “There’s no fucking way you don’t have alcohol somewhere in this house.”
At this point I’d settle for a bottle of NyQuil.
I burrow in the freezer. And there, below containers of frozen spaghetti sauce, I hit liquid gold. A bottle of Southern Comfort.
I gaze at the label, already tasting relief on my tongue. “Attaboy, Robbie. My kind of guy.”