qed. No empathy. My subconscious folds her arms and smacks her lips in disgust.
"Why's it still on there?"
"I quite like the song. But if it offends you I'll remove it."
"No, it's fine. I like to cook to music."
"What would you like to hear?"
"Surprise me."
He smirks at me and heads over to the iPod dock while I go back to my whisking.
Moments later the heavenly sweet, soulful voice of Nina Simone fills the room. It's one of Ray's favorites: "I Put a Spell on You."
I flush, turning to gape at Christian. What is he trying to tell me? He put a spell on me a long time ago. Oh my... his look has changed, the levity gone, his eyes darker, intense.
I watch him, enthralled as slowly, like the predator he is, he stalks me in time to the slow sultry beat of the music. He's barefoot, wearing just an untucked white shirt, jeans, and a smoldering look.
Nina sings, "you're mine" as Christian reaches me, his intention clear.
"Christian, please," I whisper, the whisk redundant in my hand.
"Please what?"
"Don't do this."
"Do what?"
"This."
He's standing in front of me, gazing down at me.
"Are you sure?" he breathes and reaching over, he takes the whisk from my hand and places it back in the bowl with the eggs. My heart is in my mouth. I don't want this - I do want this - badly.
He's so frustrating. He's so hot and desirable. I tear my gaze away from his spellbind-ing look.
"I want you, Anastasia," he murmurs. "I love and I hate, and I love arguing with you.
It's very new. I need to know that we're okay. It's the only way I know how."
"My feelings for you haven't changed," I whisper.
His proximity is overwhelming, exhilarating. The familiar pull is there, all my synaps-es goading me toward him, my inner goddess at her most libidinous. Staring at the patch of hair in the V of his shirt, I bite my lip, helpless, driven by desire - I want to taste him there.
He's so close, but he doesn't touch me. His heat is warming my skin.
"I'm not going to touch you until you say yes," he says softly. "But right now, after a really shitty morning, I want to bury myself in you and just forget everything but us."
Oh my... Us. A magical combination, a small potent pronoun that clinches the deal. I raise my head to stare at his beautiful yet serious face.
"I'm going to touch your face," I breathe, and see his surprise reflected briefly in his eyes before his acceptance registers.
Lifting my hand, I caress his cheek, and run my fingertips across his stubble. He closes his eyes and exhales, leaning his face into my touch.
He leans down slowly, and my lips automatically lift to meet his. He hovers over me.
"Yes or no, Anastasia?" he whispers.
"Yes."
His mouth softly closes on mine, coaxing, coercing my lips apart as his arms fold around me, pulling me to him. His hand moves up my back, fingers tangling in the hair at the back of my head and tugging gently, while his other hand flattens on my behind, forcing me against him. I moan softly.
"Mr. Grey." Taylor coughs, and Christian releases me immediately.
"Taylor," he says, his voice frigid.
I whirl round to see an uncomfortable Taylor standing on the threshold of the great room. Christian and Taylor stare at each other, some unspoken communication passing between them.
"My study," Christian snaps, and Taylor walks briskly across the room.
"Rain check," Christian whispers to me before following Taylor out of the room.
I take a deep, steadying breath. Holy hell. Can I not resist him for one minute? I shake my head, disgusted at myself, grateful for Taylor's interruption, embarrassing though it is.
I wonder what Taylor has had to interrupt in the past. What's he seen? I don't want to think about that. Lunch. I'll make lunch. I busy myself slicing potatoes. What does Taylor want? My mind races - is this about Leila?
Ten minutes later, they emerge, just as the omelet is ready. Christian looks preoccupied as he glances at me.
"I'll brief them in ten," he says to Taylor.
"We'll be ready," Taylor answers and leaves the great room.
I produce two warmed plates and place them on the kitchen island.
"Lunch?"
"Please," Christian says as he perches on one of the bar stools. Now he's watching me carefully.
"Problem?"
"No."
I scowl. He's not telling me. I dish out lunch and sit down beside him, resigned to staying in the dark.
"This is good," Christian murmurs appreciatively as he takes a bite. "Would you like a glass of wine?"
"No, thank you." I need to keep a clear head around you, Grey.
It does taste good, even though I'm not that hungry. But I eat, knowing Christian will nag if I don't. Eventually Christian disrupts our brooding silence and switches on the classical piece I heard earlier.
"What's this?" I ask.
"Canteloube, Songs of the Auvergne. This is called 'Bailero.' "
"It's lovely. What language is it?"
"It's in old French - Occitan, in fact."
"You speak French, do you understand it?" Memories of the flawless French he spoke at his parents' dinner come to mind...
"Some words, yes." Christian smiles, visibly relaxing. "My mother had a mantra: musical instrument, foreign language, martial art. Elliot speaks Spanish; Mia and I speak French. Elliot plays guitar, I play piano, and Mia the cello."
"Wow. And the martial arts?"
"Elliot does Judo. Mia put her foot down at age twelve and refused." He smirks at the memory.