"Any special issues we need to be aware of when she's under?"
"No."
"All right then." He reached over and swung the microscope closer into position, but not directly over her.
He had to cut into her first.
"Do you want music?" the nurse asked.
"No. No distractions on this case." He was operating like his life depended on it, and not just because this woman's brother had threatened him.
Even though it made no sense, losing her ... whatever she was ... would be a tragedy the likes of which he couldn't put into words.
Chapter Ten
The first thing Payne saw when she came awake was a pair of male hands. She was evidently sitting upright and in some kind of sling mechanism that supported her head and neck. And the hands in question were on the edge of the bed beside her. Beautiful and capable, with their nails trimmed down tight to the quick, they were on papers, quietly flipping through many pages.
The human male they belonged to was frowning as he read and used a scribing utensil to make occasional notations. His beard growth was heavier than when she'd seen it last, and that was how she guessed that hours had passed.
Her healer looked as exhausted as she felt.
As her consciousness surged forth e'er further, she became aware of a subtle beeping next to her head ... and of a dull pain in her back. She had a feeling that they had given her potions to numb sensation, but she didn't want that. Better to be alert - as it was, she felt encased in cotton-wool batting and that was strangely terrifying.
Unable to speak as yet, she looked around. She and the human male were alone, and this was not the room she had been held within previously. Outside, various voices in that odd human accent vied for prominence against a constant stream of footsteps.
Where was Jane? The Brotherhood - "
Help ... me...."
Her healer snapped to attention and then tossed his pages onto a rolling table. Surging to his feet, he leaned down to her, his scent a glorious tingle in her nose.
"Hey," he said.
"I feel ... nothing...."
He took her hand, and when she could sense neither warmth nor touch, she became downright o'erwrought. But he was there for her: "Shh ... no, no, you're okay. It's just the pain medications. You're okay and I'm here. Shh ..."
His voice soothed her as surely as a stroking palm would have.
"Tell me," she demanded, her voice reedy. "What ... transpired?"
"Things went satisfactorily in the OR," he said slowly. "I reset the vertebrae, and the spinal cord wasn't completely compromised."
Payne hitched her shoulders up and tried to resettle her heavy, aching head, but the contraption about her kept her right where she was. "Your tone ... speaks more than your words."
She got no immediate reply to that. He just kept soothing her with his hands that she could not feel. His eyes conversed with her own, however - and the news was not good.
"Tell. Me," she bit out. "I deserve naught else."
"It was not a failure, but I don't know where you'll end up. Time is going to tell us more than anything else."
She closed her eyes for a moment, but the darkness terrified her. Throwing her lids open, she clung to the sight of her healer ... and hated the self-blame in his handsome, grim face.
"'Tis not your fault," she said roughly. "It is what is meant to be."
Of that, at least, she was sure. He had tried to save her and done his level best - the frustration at himself was so very clear.
"What is your name?" he said. "I don't know your name."
"Payne. I am Payne."
When he frowned again, she was fairly sure that the nomenclature did not please him, and she found herself wishing she had been birthed to other syllables. But there was another reason for his dis-pleasure, wasn't there. He had seen her from the inside and had to know she was different from him.
He had to know she was an "other."
"What you suppose to be true," she murmured, "is not wrong." Her healer drew in a vast breath and seemed to hold it for a day. "What goeth on in your mind? Speak to me."
He smiled a bit, and ah, how lovely that was. So lovely. 'Twas a shame it was not from humor, however.
"Right now ..." He drew a hand through his thick, dark hair. "I'm wondering whether I should just let it all go and play dumb like I don't know what's going. Or get real."
"Real," she said. "I do not have the luxury of even a moment of falsity."
"Fair enough." His eyes locked on her. "I think that you - "
The door to the room opened a bit and a fully draped figure peered inside. Going by the delicate, pleasing scent, it was Jane, hidden beneath blue robing and a mask.
"It's almost time," she said.
Payne's healer's face became positively volcanic. "I do not agree with this."
Jane came inside and shut them all in. "Payne, you're awake."
"Indeed." She tried to smile and hoped that her lips moved. "I am."
Her healer put his body betwixt them, as if he sought to protect her. "You can't move her. It's about a week too soon for that."
Payne glanced over at the curtains that hung from the ceiling to the floor. She was nearly certain there were glass windows on the other side of the pale bolts of fabric, and very sure that if that were the case, every one of the sun's rays would pierce through when dawn came.
Now her heart pounded and she did feel it behind her ribs. "I must go. How long?"
Jane checked a timepiece on her wrist. "About an hour. And Wrath is on his way here. Which will help."
Perhaps that was why she felt so weak. She needed to feed.
As her healer seemed on the verge of speech, she cut him off to address her twin's shellan. "I shall handle this here. Please leave us."
Jane nodded and backed out the door. But no doubt stayed close by.
Payne's human rubbed his eyes as if he were hoping that doing so would change his perception ... or perhaps this reality they were stuck in.
"What name would you want me to have?" she asked quietly.
He dropped his hands and considered her for a moment. "Screw the name thing. Can you just be honest with me?"
Verily, she doubted that was a promise she could give him. Although the technique of burying memories was easy enough, she was not overly familiar with the repercussions of doing it, and her concern was that the more he knew, the more there was to hide and the more damage that could be rendered upon him.
"What do you wish to know."
"What are you."
Her eyes returned to the closed curtains. As sheltered as she had been, she was aware of the myths that the human race had constructed around her species. Undead. Killers of the innocent. Soulless and without morals.
Hardly something to crow about. Or waste their last few precious moments on.
"I cannot be exposed to sunlight." Her gaze shifted back to him. "I heal far, far faster than you. And I need to feed before I am moved - after I do, I shall be stable enough to travel."
As he looked down at his hands, she wondered if he was wishing that he hadn't operated on her.
And the silence that stretched out between them became as treacherous as a battlefield, and just as dangerous to cross. Yet she heard herself say, "There is a name for what I am."
"Yeah. And I don't want to say it out loud."
A curious ache began in her chest, and with supreme effort, she dragged her forearm upward until her palm rested over the pain. Odd that her whole body was numb, but this she could feel....
Abruptly, the sight of him became wavy.
Immediately, his expression gentled and he reached forward to brush her cheek. "Why are you crying?"
"Am I?"
He nodded and lifted his forefinger so she could see it. On the pad, a single crystal drop glistened. "Do you hurt?"
"Yes." Blinking quickly, she sought and failed to have him come into focus. "These tears are rather irritating."
The sound of his laughter and the sight of his white, even teeth lifted her, even as she stayed upon the bed. "Not one for crying, are you, then," he murmured.
"Never."
He leaned to the side and brought forth a square tissue that he used to blot what ran down her face. "Why the tears."
It took her a while to say it. And then she had to: "Vampire."
He eased back down into the chair beside her and took elaborate care folding up the square and then tossing it into a squat bin.