Might be petulant to twist out of his hold, but she tried it anyway. No surprise she couldn’t make the man budge. “What are you doing?”
“Getting you alone so I have a chance to explain—”
“Why I haven’t heard from you since you rolled out of my bed Friday morning? Or explain why you feel entitled to crash a party I’m hosting?”
“Both.”
Silence.
“So? If you wanted to explain you’d better start talking.”
“I should’ve called you. But I promise you were on my mind all damn weekend.”
Amery got right in his face. “Not a good enough apology, Master Black. Try again.”
“Such a hardass,” he murmured. “I like this side of you.”
Her belly fluttered, she felt herself softening toward him, but somehow she rallied to keep her backbone up. “I liked the side of you that promised me no games between us. You told me you’d call; I expected to hear from you. And don’t give me some lame excuse like your cell phone died or you were out of service range.”
Ronin’s eyes changed then, from cool and detached to contrite. “The truth is I owed someone a favor and he collected on it this weekend. I wasn’t expecting it and it sapped every bit of energy out of me. You deserved better than to deal with that, especially since you’re so used to my extremely engaging and chatty side.” He brushed his mouth across her knuckles.
Even though his answer was more cryptic than she liked, she believed him, especially since he’d just proven that he could poke fun at himself.
“I am sorry.” Curling his hand around the nape of her neck, he pulled her closer.
“Ronin—”
“Ssh. Just let me apologize like this too.” He kissed her with the mix of tenderness and passion that fogged up her brain.
She intended to keep her hands by her sides, but they crept up his chest of their own accord. Within fifteen seconds of his mouth mastering hers, Amery forgot her anger with him. She forgot everything but the way kissing Ronin consumed her.
Somehow her sanity clawed to the surface, urging her to break the kiss. “Stop mauling me at my own dinner party. A dinner party you weren’t invited to.”
“I’ll behave if you let me stay.”
Amery realized he still held her hands, except he wasn’t looking at her, but across the roof. That caused her to bristle up again. “I know it’s not as nice as yours—”
He shut her up with a kiss. Then he pressed his forehead to hers. “Right now this place far exceeds the beauty of mine because it’s filled with people who care about you. My place may be twice as big, but that only makes it feel emptier when it’s just me up there. Which it almost always is.”
His vulnerability in that moment spoke to her on the most basic human level. Ronin was lonely. Maybe not always, but often enough that he understood that visceral fear that it might never change.
“Fine. You can stay. Come on. I need to see if anyone needs anything.”
“I need something first.”
Amery’s gaze snagged his. “What?”
“Your promise that I can stay with you tonight.”
“Sure. Be warned; you’ll have plenty of dishes to wash.”
Ronin flashed her a quick, boyish grin. “Had plenty of experience with that at the monastery.”
For the rest of the party, he remained at her side, being charming in his understated way. As she watched him, she noticed he kept his guard up among people, not only when he was at the dojo.
But he lowers it around you.
Now she realized what a big deal that was for him.
As the party wound down, Amery promised Lucas she’d get back to him quickly on her project proposal. Jake didn’t suggest they set up a lunch date when Ronin kept a hand on her at all times.
Since Emmylou and Marilyn, aka Sasha, were the last to leave, they offered to stay and help clean up, but Amery shooed them out.
Leaving her and Ronin alone.
First thing he did was back her against the wall. The kiss started out slow. A lazy twining of tongues. But it picked up steam and soon they were kissing like maniacs. He stopped kissing her long enough to say, “Need you naked.”
“Which is an awesome idea, but we have to clean up and put this food away first.”
“Can’t it wait an hour?”
“No. Because once I hit the sheets with you, I won’t want to crawl back out. And the thought of facing this mess on a Monday morning is crazy-making enough that I won’t enjoy getting naked with you if it’s not done.”
“Fine.” Ronin backed up. “What do you want me to do?”
“Be my pack mule. Take the tables and chairs from the roof back down into the office.”
He made a braying sound before he disappeared up the stairs.
CHAPTER TEN
AFTER she’d finished setting the kitchen to rights, Amery drained the remnants of her wine cooler and tossed the bottle in the recycling bin. When she turned around, Ronin was so close she bumped into him. “Hey there, ninja.”
“You really had no idea I was behind you?”
“No. You are just too damn good at that stealth thing.”
“Years of practice.” Ronin tucked a tendril of her hair behind her ear, then ran his finger down the arch of her neck. “This is so pretty and tempting, but I’ll admit I like your hair worn down.”
“Why?”
“Because a true strawberry blond is such a unique color. It complements your beautiful face so well and gives it an extra glow.”
“You say the sweetest things sometimes, Ronin.”
“The other reason I like your hair down is that I’ve fantasized about having these silken tresses wrapped around my fist as I’m f**king you.”
A curl of need unfurled in her belly.
“You’d like that, wouldn’t you?”
“I like everything you do to me.” Amery pressed her palms against his pectorals and rubbed the heels of her hands against his ni**les. “But that brings up a point I wanted to talk to you about.”
He said nothing. Some of the warmth bled from his eyes.
“Thursday night was amazing.” She raised her chin a notch. “You’ve been stingy on giving me equal time in touching you. So if you’re staying with me tonight? I demand full access to your body. I expect you’ll let me touch and kiss and play with it as much as I want.”
Ronin placed his hand on the side of her face, letting his thumb trace the lower curve of her lip. “Demanding something that intimate from me when you’ve got a pretty red blush heating your cheeks is enough to make a man lose his head entirely.”