Plus, Ronin never made her feel subservient. She wasn’t there strictly for his pleasure. If anything, the opposite was true. He went above and beyond giving her pleasure . . . and always first.
Now that she’d sorted that out, what did she do next?
By the time Amery had returned to her loft she hadn’t come up with an answer.
Out of habit she turned on her laptop and checked her e-mail. Well, well, another e-mail from Cherry Starr.
Amery,
I know your work because you’ve done some brochures and flyers for my family’s campground. And sorry for coming off mysterious, but Cherry Starr is my pen name and no one in my family knows I write erotica—and I’d like to keep it that way.
Before we go any further, is there such a thing as client confidentiality?
Cherry~
Amery had done several brochures over the years for different campgrounds. Some camps were church based; some were family focused and wouldn’t allow singles or couples without children to camp there. She understood Cherry’s reluctance to reveal her identity without some guarantee Amery wouldn’t blab. She typed back:
Cherry,
Yes, I can promise you client confidentiality. I’m not trying to be rude, but I see that you write books about bondage, and I’m wondering if you’d be willing to tell me about the BDSM lifestyle. What does this have to do with your cover design? Not a damn thing. So my questions really are more on a personal side.
A~
Two hours later, a response popped up in Amery’s in-box.
Amery,
I actually don’t mind answering questions—knowledge is power, and I’m happy to use my experience—limited as it is—to clear up misconceptions.
No, I’m not in the life. I’ve dabbled and done a few “drive-bys,” but I haven’t found a situation or a man who . . . fit me. That said, there is a difference between BDSM and bondage.
In the BDSM lifestyle one person is the Dominant and the other submissive—even if they’re “playing” for only one night. The relationship between the Dom and the sub is sexual—more often than not.
Things are . . . a little trickier when it comes to explaining bondage. It’s a release for some people to be tied up to the point they can’t move, they can’t think, they exist solely as a vessel. Some rope enthusiasts want to be bound by someone they have no other intimate relations with, so the binding process is not always sexual. Sometimes it’s strictly psychological. Then there are the artistic bondage disciplines, where the beauty of the ties and configuration of knots is more about showcasing the rope master’s artistry than emphasizing the sexual aspect of the scene.
Amery pushed away from the computer screen and rubbed her eyes. Every time Ronin had immobilized her, he’d made it sensual. He couldn’t touch her enough. Being bound had allowed him to explore her body and her reactions without restriction.
And the truth was, she’d liked it, even when she hadn’t known what he was doing to her had an actual official name.
Maybe she was naive, but she’d had no idea relationships like those—BDSM, Dominants, submissives—existed. She considered herself open-minded, but it’d never work for her. If it worked for other people, great.
She sipped her coffee and grimaced that it’d gone cold before she continued reading Cherry’s response.
Still interested in working with me? I obviously have no opinions on this—LOL.
Cherry~
After rereading the e-mail, she pulled up her history from last night and spent another hour reading about shibari and kinbaku, determined that when she and Ronin finally had an honest conversation about it, she wouldn’t be completely clueless.
• • •
“A dozen? Sure, that’ll work.” Amery kept her head tilted toward her shoulder to hold the phone receiver in place as she typed the information into her weekly calendar. “No, thank you. I appreciate the business and I’m always excited to work on new projects.” She laughed. “Take care. See you Thursday.”
She dropped the receiver in the cradle and moved her neck in a circle to get the kinks out.
“You really need to invest in a wireless headset,” Molly said from the doorway.
Amery looked up. “I know. But the number of choices overwhelms me and I always end up walking out of the store without buying anything.”
“Do me a favor. Next time, let me come with you.”
“Deal. Did you need something?”
Molly glanced over her shoulder. “There’s someone here to see you.”
Ronin.
Her face heated. Since their “break” she’d kept herself occupied from the moment she woke up until her head hit the pillow in an attempt to stop thinking about him. It hadn’t worked, which annoyed her to no appreciable end. They’d been involved for three weeks. Three weeks. She shouldn’t have such a . . . bond with him. She’d certainly never missed Tyler the way she missed the sexy sensei. But she honestly didn’t know what she’d say to Ronin when she saw him, or why the prospect of seeing him made her heart race.
“Will you be disappointed that your visitor isn’t Ronin?”
The way her stomach plummeted, the answer to that would be a resounding yes. “Then who is it?”
“Shihan Knox from the dojo. Do you want me to tell him you’re on a client call?”
“No. Send him back.” Amery barely had time to clear off a place for him to sit before all six feet four inches sauntered into the room.
He smiled at her before he closed the door.
“I usually leave my door open.”
“I figured you’d want it closed for this conversation.” He plopped in the chair and cocked his head. “Unless you already told your office mates what happened between you and Ronin Saturday night?”
“It’d be hard to tell them when I’m not exactly sure what happened myself.”
“I can guess exactly what happened.”
She frowned. “Ronin didn’t tell you?”
“Nope. In fact, he doesn’t know I’m here.”
That startled her.
“I’m betting you freaked out after Master Black broke out the ropes.”
Amery blushed.
“Did he show you his practice room?”
“That’s what he calls it?”
“What else would he call it?” Knox’s eyes narrowed. “Maybe the question is, what did you call it?”
She blushed harder, if possible when she admitted, “Nothing I care to repeat because I said it out of shock and fear.”