Kane leaned in slowly, pausing for a minute right before our lips touched. Close enough that I could feel his hot breath on my face. He lingered there for a moment, almost making me think he had changed his mind about kissing me, but then he softy placed his lips against mine.
The kiss was so soft and sweet but still held so much strength and passion. He took his time, making sure I was fully kissed on the outside before I felt the warm sliver of his tongue caressing my bottom lip, asking for entrance, which I happily obliged. Kane brought his other hand up and buried it in the hair at the back of my neck. Between the feel of his light tugging on my hair and the way he was kissing me, before I knew it, my body was moving, climbing onto Kane’s lap.
When I had my legs straddling his hips I took control of the kiss. I was exploring his mouth the way he had done mine so many times. I knew if felt good to me but I wasn’t really sure I was doing it right until I heard him growl in between kisses and he brought his hands down to firmly grip my hips.
My shirt had ridden up a tad bit, just enough that parts of his hands were touching my bare skin, and the heat from his hands on my skin sent me into a frenzy. I was gripping at his arms so tight and I could feel my breathing becoming uneven and almost panting. I hadn’t even noticed that my hips had begun rocking on his lap.
I had never in my life taken it this far with someone. Hell, I had hardly even kissed boys, but I just got so caught up in Kane’s kisses that my body took over and it was going to do what it wanted to to make itself feel good. No matter how crazy it made me look in the process.
Kane’s grip on my hips grew tighter and I noticed he was helping me move now. I could feel a warmth grow hotter and hotter in my stomach, and before I knew it there was an explosion, or what felt like an explosion anyway. It felt as though every hair on my body was standing straight on end and my toes were curled so hard I was a little scared of the Charlie horse that would follow. I then realized how my chest was heaving right in Kane’s face.
I was so embarrassed that I had even climbed on his lap in the first place. Now how was I even going to face him after pretty much dry hump raping him when all he was after was a kiss?
I scurried off his lap and made my way across the room, putting some distance between us. I hugged myself, mortified about what had just happened.
“Kelsey.”
“I’m so sorry. I don’t know what that was about. I have never done anything like that before.” I chanced a glance at him and saw that he was getting up from my bed.
Great. Way to go Kelsey. You have really scared him away now.
But Kane didn’t make his way toward my door like I thought he might. Instead, he took a few long strides and wrapped his arms around me.
“Kelsey, that right there was one of the hottest things that has ever happened to me. You completely took control there and believe me, I was more than willing to let you use me in any way you saw fit.”
He turned me in his arms to face him and I wanted to bury my face in my hands. “I was a complete freak right there. I’m so sorry. I damn near assaulted you.”
He barked out a laugh and pulled me closer to his chest. “No. Kelsey, you didn’t. I am a guy after all. I would never push you into anything you’re not ready to do, but believe me if you ever feel like you are ready to maybe test the waters a little, I am more than willing to help you out with that.” He winked to try to lighten the mood.
I smiled up at him but still felt like a compete spaz. I couldn’t believe I had just orgasmed like that in front of him. Kane cleared his throat and kind of shifted from foot to foot.
“As much as I would love to stay and spend some more time with you, I think I’m going to have to call it a night a little early and, uh, take care of something.” He glanced down.
I followed where his eyes had gone and my hand flew to my mouth when I noticed the huge bulge in his pants. It was obviously pushing against his jeans and probably had to be quite painful. Poor guy. I was even worse than I thought.
“Um, maybe I could help you out with that?” I questioned, but my voice was noticeably shaky.
He shook his head. “No it’s all right. Nothing I haven’t dealt with before, but I will say this, it was the best way it has ever been brought on.” He gave me a sly smile. “I’ll text you later, okay?”
I nodded. Honestly I was a little relieved that he hadn’t taken me up on my offer because I would have had no clue what to even do with it had he said yes.
Kane gave me a quick kiss goodbye and headed out the door. After he was gone I noticed the still-untouched food lying on my bed. If I hadn’t been starving, I would have probably felt bad about devouring half of it within five minutes after he’d left with the problem he did. But it smelled so good and like I said, I was starving, so I ate my fill and put the rest in our mini fridge with a note for Jessi, letting her know there was more left over if she wanted it. Then I climbed into my bed and read some more while I waited for Kane’s text letting me know he had made it home safely.
Over the next few days, Kane and I had fallen into a pretty steady routine. We spent as much time as we could together when he wasn’t working. We made out … a lot, but there were no mishaps like before—not that the urge didn’t hit to jump him when we kissed, I was just becoming more in control of myself around him.
The day of the cookout, I stressed all day over what to wear. I mean I was meeting his grandparents after all, and they were important to him so I wanted them to really like me. This would be the first time I had ever met the family of a guy I was interested in, so I was freaking out a little bit. Usually people had high school to get used to that awkward first time meeting the family thing, but since my high school years were mostly spent hiding out, I never had the chance. Now here I was eighteen years old and scared to death to meet someone’s grandma.
“Kelsey, would you just pick something already? Landon will be here in a minute,” Jessi huffed from where she sat perched on her bed.
“I need to find the perfect thing to wear, Jess. I have to make a good impression on them. Kane really looks up to his grandparents, and if they don’t like me, well maybe it would be a deal breaker for him,” I said as I tossed yet another shirt over my shoulder where it landed in the pile with the others that I had already deemed not worthy.
I guess Jessi had finally had enough of my mini melt down because she hopped off her bed, made her way to me, gripped my shoulder and gave me one firm shake.