She paused to consider his question. No. Not necessarily. If youll remember, Ive been ranting about your doing something . Anything but simply taking the disappointment and anger youve struggled with for five years. Finally, youll be able to have those children we know youve wanted.
Had he always been so transparent? Had they known that it was what bothered him most about marrying Lydianot having children? Hed always thought they believed it was because she was unfaithful to him. When in fact, he couldnt bring himself to care about that, since hed never liked his wife, much less loved her.
Now children were no longer importanthe wanted them, but he couldnt live his life without Nicole.
He acted calm, but the news made his head pound in time with his heart. He would end this charade so that when he found Nicole, nothing would stand in his way.
Resolved, he patted his mothers hand and slapped his brother on the back. If youll excuse me. This cant wait another day.
Minutes later, facing the elaborate facade of his wifes town home, he was reminded anew of the extreme lavishness of the place. Shortly after they were married, shed purchased and furnished it using his money, sparing no expense; yet hed been glad to provide it because he could eliminate one place he might ever run into her. If he did happen to be home from a trip, he avoided the country estates, as well as any of the tons gilded yet facile amusements. In their five years of marriage, hed seen his wife on only a handful of occasions.
Good morning, Lydia, he said civilly as he was shown to her sitting room. As usual, she looked beautiful, with her blue-black hair and glittering green eyes. As usual, she reminded him of a snake.
What do you want? she snapped. The only thing that could mar her perfect face was the expression of hate that continually suffused it. He wondered how others couldnt see the malignity from inside that manifested itself in her eyes, but then, hed been fooled as well.
In the beginning, hed wanted to ask what had filled her with such bitterness. Though it wouldnt be a simple answer with her. Was it her familys overweening greed? Or the death of the man shed really wanted to marry? But he was long past even a token interest in his wife by now.
No small talk? Good. Well get right down to it. Youre pregnant, he said with a nod toward her scarcely rounding belly. I want a divorce.
She laughed then, a false sound. You cant divorce me.
I can and I will.
Thats where youre wrong, she said in an amused tone, shifting her rich brocade morning robe. Hed most likely paid a fortune for it.
Derek forced himself to be calm. He was doing this for his and Nicoles future, and any anger on his part could backfire. I thought you desired this. You want to marry someone else, he offered reasonably.
Actually, she began, taking a casual sip of tea, well be getting an annulment.
He kept his face expressionless. With Lydia, any sign of emotion would be seen as a weakness to be exploited. He raised his eyebrows and assumed a disinterested pose. On what grounds?
You are unable to perform your marital duties. She looked down at her long nails. You arent a man to me.
Is that what youve been telling people?
She looked up with a chilling smile. Yes, she hissed, looking very pleased with herself.
He tried not to laugh aloud. Hed never expected such a resolution. And how do you plan to explain your condition?
Ill be gone by the time anyone suspects. My next husbands family is Catholic. He wants his childbut not a divorced mother.
I cant believe you would do this, he said honestly.
Believe it. Its already been set in motion. Ill be free of you in a matter of days.
Youve told everyone? Theres no way to take it back?
She gave that same eerie smile. Ive given my oath.
Excellent!
She looked startled.
Bloody good idea, Lydia. Ill see that my solicitors push it through with all haste. He left the beautiful Lydia sputtering, her plump red lips gaping like those of a fish.
Prepared to be chastised, Nicole walked in to see her grandmother for the first time in more than seven months. Before the voyage, shed claimed she planned to shop during a relaxing vacation on the Continent. Now that the dowager was aware of everything, Nicole braced herself for a martial demeanor and cutting accusations.
So she was more than surprised to find her grandmother, the Marchioness of Atworth, lovingly rubbing noses with one of her pugs, and chatting to the unmoving animal.
Are you Mommys wittle Pixie? she asked. She answered for the dog with something that sounded suspiciously like Oh, S U R.
The dog looked as dumbfounded as Nicole felt. Finally, she cleared her throat.
Her grandmother looked up sharply. Why werent you announced? she asked, tucking the dog under her arm.
I told Chapman I could show myself inbut if Im disturbing you she said in an incredulous voice.
To her amazement, her stern grandmother chuckled. Well, you caught me doing the pretty to my pug. Then she held up the object of her affection. Pixie is such a sweet little girl, isnt she? In the past, I never told her.
In answer, Nicole only raised her eyebrows. She couldnt seem to erase the startled look she felt settling on her face. It became even more fixed when, after setting down the dog, her grandmother walked over and, with a surprising strength, hugged her for the first time in her life.
Nicole recalled the strange moment when shed seen Maria on the dock in Cape Town. Chancey, the crew, her fatherthey were all there. Shed had the oddest thought and almost became embarrassed by it: The only one missing is Grandmother .
Dont look so surprised, gel. I dont hold back feeling any longer. Anytime I want to express emotion, I do it.
It was then that she noticed her grandmothers collar wasnt buttoned to choking tightness, and she wasnt garbed in black. Steel gray, yes, but at least not her usual dour attire. What brought about this change? Nicole asked slowly.
When your father told me where you were going, I was saddened because it appeared that you would do anything to get away from me.
Nicole felt a swift pang of guilt and opened her mouth to explain, but her grandmother continued, I know now how important that race was to you. So like Laurel you are. No, what really changed me was the word that your ship had gone down. I believed you were dead, and all I could do was recall with regret the times you were here. Regret because I should have treated you differently. I should have told you how very much you are like my own daughter, she confessed, her dark eyes shining.