His mother sank into the chair.
Thered be no way to spare her. He might as well tell her so she at least had time to accustom herself to the idea before he came back with Nicole. He took a breath and informed her, The woman I desire to marry is an American.
Amanda Sutherland appeared to relax at that information. Most people of her acquaintance could overlook an American without a title if she was extravagantly wealthy .
The family fortune runs in the negative at this point.
Her hand inched up to her mouth. Could you have found someone who would be more disastrous to this family?
How could she even dare! Actually, I just ended my marriage to someone who was, Derek said cuttingly. Since the family chose her, perhaps this time Ill be allowed to choose my own bride.
We couldnt have known, his mother whispered sadly.
Well, you might have nothing to worry about. I left the girl, abandoned her, because I was married. Shell most likely spurn me.
He turned from her and heard her rise to go. He could feel some of the frustration leaving his body. This was all in the past. He wanted to look forward. See if you cant find Grant, he called after her. Hed get his brother to teach him how to manage everything, and hed take care of his own obligations. And please get every ounce of liquor out of this house.
When Grant strolled in, he was as perfectly dressed and creased as ever. Why the long face? he asked as he took a seat. You should be ecstatic. The race is won, and youre single yet again.
Derek hesitated, debating whether to tell his brother everything. They had been close as boys .
With a dry smile, he revealed, Well, it appears that I am still pining over Lassiters chit.
Grant sucked in a breath and sat back in his chair. You dont say?
An hour later, Grant was reeling from all Derek had told him. Is she so beautiful?
To meutterly, he said as he ran a hand through his hair. But its much more than that.
Grant frowned. And yet, you just left her?
I was trying to be noble, to be good to her. Now I realize I was just bloody stupid. I should have brought her back here and married her as soon as I ended my marriage to Lydia.
The manChanceyhad a point, though, if you werent prepared to marry the girl at the time.
He was right then, but things have changed now.
Are you ready to remarry?
Dereks brows drew together. Why did Grant sound so doubtful? I will be, with your help.
Hours later, when theyd reviewed the books and anything else Grant could think of, Derek stood and stretched.
There isnt much left to go over, Grant said.
Hed warmed up to his brothers plans, possibly because hed seen how serious Derek was about learning. Still, Derek wanted to reassure him. I will handle my own, Grant.
Grant looked at him curiously, as if making a decision, then nodded. For the first few months, itll be learning by trial. Ive got everything running smoothly, so you have a bit of time to search for your sailor before you need to dig in.
I appreciate your help. Now, and for the last few years.
Grant appeared uneasy. Well, dont get all sentimental on me. I drew a very large salary as your estate manager.
When Derek raised his eyebrows, Grant smiled blandly and changed the subject. You know, it wouldnt kill you to attend one of these balls that Mother keeps harping on.
Forget it
Just hear me out. I know youre in love with this girl, he said, his eyes searching Dereks face. God knows, Ive never seen you like this. But it wouldnt hurt to at least act as though youre cooperating with her.
Why? Because she wants me to start the search for a new bride now that the annulment is finalized? I told her about Nicole, but you know she wont give up. If I go to one of these things, shell push a hundred women at me in the hope that one catches my fancy instead of a penniless, nameless American. If I go, shell think she has a chance of getting me to wed someone who is not Nicole. He ran a hand over his haggard face. It wouldnt be fair to her, because it will never happen!
Grant seemed taken aback by his vehemence. Not even a couple of nights to smooth out some of the gossip about the annulment? Your presence after so long would help stem the worst of it. The seasons halfway over. It wouldnt become expected of you.
Unfortunately, Grants arguments made sense. He didnt want to bring Nicole here and have her affected by any slurs on the family. Still, he wavered. You know I need to be here in case I get some news.
Grant exhaled in exasperation. You would only be going a few blocks away. A message would be sure to reach you. When Derek said nothing, Grant continued, When you were off gallivanting all over the world, it was Mother here who bore the brunt of shame because of Lydia. Grant stood and paced. Shes been the one most affected by the rumors, and she was the one who had to deal with Lydias temper on a regular basis. That woman has no restraint. Grant looked as though he would shudder. Lydias compulsive need to shock was most likely his stodgy brothers main complaint against the woman.
And you? Did her conduct affect you? Derek asked with concern.
Are you kidding? It nearly made me swear off marriage. But I did feel sorry for Mother. It was extremely hard on a woman as proud as she is.
Grants words forced him to recognize how selfish hed been to leave them all here with her. Hed hurt more than just Nicole.
Derek threw his hands up to signal defeat. Very well. Ill go tonight, but I cant guarantee Ill be fitting company.
Thank you, Derek, Grant said. He walked to the door, then turned back and said in a voice that might have been just a little hoarse, Its good to have you back.
Chapter 26
Oh, yes, he was making his mother happy. She flitted around Lady Crossmans ballroom from one matchmaking mama to the next, teasing them with Derek as if he were a slab of meat set before ravenous animals. Earlier shed mentioned that people were surprisingly receptive to the idea of Derek remarrying. Soon, she predicted, all the new layers of gossip would bury the scandal.
People could overlook a lot when one of the wealthiest peers in London had just become available. Particularly since his mother had told everyone he was actively seeking a wife. He supposed it wasnt a lie; he was actively seeking Nicole.
Hed always had a sense of wasting time at the soirees and routs, as if he were just playing up to something that would happen in the future. Tonight was no different. He was anxious and impatient. With Nicole, hed lived in the present. Not thinking of the future or the past, but only of his time with her. Recalling how easy hed felt around her made it even more difficult to be civil to all the little chits pushed at him and Grant. Their vapid conversation had not improved in the time hed been away. Not that hed expected it to.