“What was it like growing up with Johnny Gilmore?”
“You want to know the truth?”
“Of course I do,” he said as he gave me a weird look.
“It was like living in a whore house.”
He didn’t have a chance to respond because the waitress brought over our food. I took a bite of my taco as he stared at me.
“I’m sorry, Lily.”
I wiped my mouth with my napkin. “Don’t be, you didn’t know. We can talk more about it later.”
Luke smiled at me and nodded his head.
***
We walked, hand in hand, back to his Jeep, and he walked over to the passenger side to open the door for me. Before I could get in, he cupped my chin in his hand and softly kissed me on the lips.
“I’ve wanted to do that since we got here.” He smiled.
“I’ve been waiting for you to do it,” I said as I bit my bottom lip.
We climbed into the Jeep, and he drove us to the cove.
***
“I thought this would be the perfect place for us to be alone and talk.”
“It’s the perfect place,” I said as he led me to the secluded area.
I sat in the sand as he built a small bonfire. The atmosphere was beautiful, and there was no other place I wanted to be but here with him.
“So, you wanted to know about life with Johnny Gilmore, right?” I asked.
He stopped what he was doing and looked at me. “If you don’t want to talk about it, I’ll understand.”
“My father was a man whore that slept with any woman who glanced his way. My mother knew about it and threatened to divorce him if he didn’t stop. He promised her that he would, so to try and keep her from finding out, he would use me and my sister as an excuse. He called it ‘daddy-daughter day’. Once a week, he’d take me and my sister somewhere fun; then we’d end up at one of his whores’ house, and he’d make us sit on the couch while he went and f**ked her in the bedroom. He would tell us that she was a friend that needed something fixed. This went on for years. Sometimes, at night, he’d ask me if I wanted to go for ice cream, and he’d make me sit in the car, alone and in the dark, and wait for him while he went inside someone’s house. I’ll never forget the feeling of being so scared.”
Luke finished building the bonfire and walked over to me. He sat behind me and put his arms around my waist, pulling me into him.
“Wow, I really had no idea. What an a**hole. Didn’t you ever tell your mom what he was doing?”
“Johnny said that mom wouldn’t understand, and that she’d leave us, and he didn’t want me being responsible for breaking up the family. He said it was our little secret, and that I’d be rewarded in the end.”
“What the hell did he mean by that?” Luke asked.
“When he died a couple of years ago, I found out there was a bank account in my name that he started when I was a kid. I guess that’s what he meant. He did have his good moments; he taught me to play the guitar, he sang special songs to me, and he left me a great deal of money, but I would’ve rather had a father who was home and faithful to his wife instead of all that money. I remember many Christmases where he’d be there in the mornings and then he’d have to leave. He would tell my mom that he and the boys had to practice, but we knew he was going to see one of his whores. I don’t know what I would have done if it wasn’t for Giselle and Gretchen. I practically lived at their house just to experience some normalcy.”
Luke tightened his arms around me as I laid my head back on his chest. “So it’s hard for me to hear people idolizing him because he was a shitty father who could have been so much better.”
“I’m sure he loved you.”
“I knew he loved me. He told me every chance he could, but those were just words.”
Luke rested his chin on my shoulder. “Why didn’t your mom leave him?”
“She was afraid of being alone. She convinced herself that he loved her more than all the other women; that they were just distractions, and at the end of the day, he always came home to her.”
“That’s crazy,” he said as he lightly squeezed me.
“She’s crazy. Look at how she was going to let me marry Hunter so that I’d live the life she did.”
Luke pushed my hair to the side and began kissing my neck. I smiled as I tilted my head to the side. “Keep that up, and you’ll be sorry.”
“Somehow, I don’t think I’ll be sorry,” he whispered.
I closed my eyes, and I could feel his erection pressing against the small of my back. I wanted him, but I was scared. It had been over year since I last had sex, and I was afraid I wouldn’t be any good for him. As I brought my hands up to his head and ran my fingers through his hair, he let out a light groan and turned me so that I was laying on my back, in the soft sand. He lowered himself on top of me as his lips found their way to mine. His kiss was soft and alluring, and his actions were gentle and slow. His hands traveled to my br**sts as he gently squeezed them through the fabric of my dress. Our breathing was rapid, and our hearts were beating fast. He reached his hand under my dress and up to my thong, cupping my ass as he let out a moan of excitement, then he pushed the edge of my panties to the side with his finger and gently inserted it inside me. I arched my back and moaned as the sensation came rushing to me.
“Do you want me to stop?” he whispered as he kissed me.
“No, I don’t ever want you to stop,” I replied.
He groaned at my reply, inserting another finger. I was already wet and getting ready to come.
He softly rubbed my cl*t in small circles as his fingers moved in and out of me fluently. I started moaning. “Luke, I’m going to come. Don’t stop, please.”
“I won’t stop. I want to feel you come with my fingers inside you.”
This man knew what he was doing, and I wanted more of him. I wanted to feel every inch of him inside me. My body shook as I cli**xed, and every tingling nerve in my body heightened. The flickering light of the fire showed off his beautiful smile as he brought me to orgasm. I moaned quietly even though I wanted to scream from the pleasure, but I was afraid someone would hear me.
Luke didn’t say a word; he just stared at me and smiled as he gently removed his fingers from me. I brought him down to me and kissed his warm lips. “I want to have sex with you,” I whispered.
He took the back of his hand and gently stroked my cheek. “We aren’t going to have sex, Lily. We’re going to make love, and it’s going to be beautiful, but not tonight and not here.”
I couldn’t speak. I was lost in his stare and his words. “We should get going; you have school tomorrow, and I have a broken garbage disposal that needs to be fixed.”
I laughed, but I didn’t want our night to end. Luke stood up and put the bonfire out. Moments later, he took my hand and helped me up from the sand; then he pulled me into him and kissed me. I smiled as we held each other and danced for a minute.
We climbed into the Jeep, and I sat there, thinking about how he never told me a thing about his ex-fiancée or the accident. I wanted to know everything about him. I sighed, and he reached over, taking my hand.
“Is everything alright?” he asked.
I looked over at him and smiled. “Everything’s perfectly fine.”
18
Luke
When we arrived home, I walked around and helped Lily out of the Jeep. I took her hand and walked her to her apartment. I couldn’t stop thinking about what happened and how much she enjoyed it. Feeling the inside of her was incredible, and hearing her moan as I gave her pleasure was heart-stopping. My feelings for her were strong—stronger than I’d ever imagined. I needed her in ways I didn’t understand. Every time she smiled at me, I grew weaker.
“Please come in and have a beer,” she said innocently.
I couldn’t resist her and the tone she used. “That’d be great, thanks.” I smiled.
She threw her keys on the counter, and I pulled out my phone to see if I had any messages. The only one was from Sam’s phone.
“Have fun with Lily, Uncle Luke.”
I laughed and looked at Lily as she grabbed two beers from the fridge. She handed me one, then we both sat down on the couch.
“You haven’t told me anything about you. All I know is that you’re the maintenance man, you love my father, and you’re in a band.”
Eventually, I needed to tell her about Callie and the accident. It wasn’t fair to her that I haven’t spoken about it yet. I looked at her and took in a deep breath.
“I was the quarterback of the high school football team, and Callie was the lead cheerleader. We met senior year, when her dad was transferred here from Ohio. We both felt an instant attraction, and we had dated up until the accident.”
Lily reached over and grabbed my hand. She could see the tears beginning to fill my eyes. It was still too hard to talk about.
“It’s ok, Luke. You don’t have to talk about it anymore; I understand how hard it is.”
I leaned forward and grabbed her, pulling her into a warm embrace. I needed to feel the comfort of her being in my arms. I drank most of my beer and looked at the clock; it was 12:00 a.m. “You need to get some sleep; you have to be up early for work, and I don’t want you to be tired,” I said to her as I got up from the couch.
“I don’t sleep anyway,” she said.
I set the beer bottle on the counter and turned to look at her. “What do you mean you don’t sleep?”
“I can’t sleep more than a couple of hours a night.”
I walked over to her and pushed her hair behind her ear. “Have you talked to someone about this?”
She took my hand and kissed my palm. “No, not yet.”
“How long has this been going on?” I asked her with concern.
“Since the whole church ordeal,” she said as she turned and started walking away.
“That was over a year ago, Lily!” I exclaimed. “How the hell do you function on only a couple hours of sleep?”
“I don’t know. I’m used to it, I guess.”
I walked over to her and kissed the top of her head. As I wrapped my arms around her, she held on tight. “I’m staying here tonight to make sure you sleep,” I said.
She turned around and looked at me. “If you’re staying here, then you’re going to have to make love to me,” she said as she stared into my eyes.
“Lily,” I whispered as I tilted my head and gently kissed her lips.
I couldn’t refuse her. She wanted me to make love to her just as bad as I wanted to. I slowly took down the straps of her dress; then it fell to the ground, revealing her lace bra and thong. Her body was amazing, and I instantly became hard. I took her face in my hands. “I don’t have a condom; I’ll have to go get one.”
“You don’t need one. I’m on the pill, and I’m clean. I haven’t had sex in over a year,” she whispered.
I smiled at her. “I haven’t had sex since the accident, and I’m also clean, so I don’t want you to worry.”