It was a good thing Thomas pulled her back, because Jack would have gone for her throat.
“Louise was not married in the Butlersbridge church,” Mary said. “She was married at Maguiresbridge. In County Fermanagh, where we grew up.”
“How far is that?” the dowager demanded, trying to yank her arm free of Thomas’s grasp.
“Twenty miles, your grace.”
The dowager muttered something quite unpleasant. Jack could not make out the exact words, but Mary blanched. She turned to him with an expression nearing alarm. “Jack? What is this all about? Why do you need proof of your mother’s marriage?”
He looked at Grace, who was standing a bit behind his aunt. She offered him a tiny nod of encouragement, and he cleared his throat and said, “My father was her son.”
Mary looked over at the dowager in shock. “Your father…John Cavendish, you mean…”
Thomas stepped forward. “May I intercede?”
Jack felt exhausted. “Please do.”
“Mrs. Audley,” Thomas said, with more dignity and collection than Jack could ever have imagined, “if there is proof of your sister’s marriage, then your nephew is the true Duke of Wyndham.”
“The true Duke of-” Mary covered her mouth in shock. “No. It’s not possible. I remember him. Mr. Cavendish. He was-” She waved her arms in the air as if trying to describe him with gestures. Finally, after several attempts at a more verbal explanation, she said, “He would not have kept such a thing from us.”
“He was not the heir at the time,” Thomas told her, “and had no reason to believe he would become so.”
“Oh, my heavens. But if Jack is the duke, then you-”
“Are not,” he finished wryly. “I am sure you can imagine our eagerness to have this settled.”
Mary stared at him in shock. And then at Jack. And then looked as if she very much wanted to sit down.
“I am standing in the hall,” the dowager announced haughtily.
“Don’t be rude,” Thomas chided.
“She should have seen to-”
Thomas shifted his grip on her arm and yanked her forward, brushing right past Jack and his aunt. “Mrs. Audley,” he said, “we are most grateful for your hospitality. All of us.”
Mary nodded gratefully and turned to the butler. “Wimpole, would you-”
“Of course, ma’am,” he said, and Jack had to smile as he moved away. No doubt he was rousing the housekeeper to have her prepare the necessary bedrooms. Wimpole had always known what Aunt Mary needed before she’d had to utter the words.
“We shall have rooms readied in no time,” Mary said, turning to Grace and Amelia, who were standing off to the side. “Would the two of you mind sharing? I don’t have-”
“It is no trouble at all,” Grace said warmly. “We enjoy each other’s company.”
“Oh, thank you,” Mary said, sounding relieved. “Jack, you shall have to take your old bed in the nursery, and-oh, this is silly, I should not be wasting your time here in the hall. Let us retire to the drawing room, where you may warm yourselves by the fire until your rooms are ready.”
She ushered everyone in, but when Jack made to go, she placed her hand on his arm, gently holding him back.
“We missed you,” she said.
He swallowed, but the lump in his throat would not dislodge. “I missed you, too,” he said. He tried to smile. “Who is home? Edward must have-”
“Married,” she finished for him. “Yes. As soon as we were out of mourning for Arthur. And Margaret soon after. They both live close by, Edward just down the lane, Margaret in Belturbet.”
“And Uncle William?” Jack had last seen him at Arthur’s funeral. He’d looked older. Older, and tired. And stiff with grief. “He is well?”
Mary was silent, and then an unbearable sorrow filled her eyes. Her lips parted but she did not speak. She did not need to.
Jack stared at her in shock. “No,” he whispered, because it could not be true. He was supposed to have had a chance to say he was sorry. He’d come all the way to Ireland. He wanted to say he was sorry.
“He died, Jack.” Mary blinked several times, her eyes glistening. “It was two years ago. I didn’t know how to find you. You never gave us an address.”
Jack turned, taking a few steps toward the rear of the house. If he stayed where he was, someone could see him. Everyone was in the drawing room. If they looked through the doorway, they would see him, struck, ready to cry, maybe ready to scream.
“Jack?” It was Mary, and he could hear her steps moving cautiously toward him. He looked up at the ceiling, taking a shaky, open-mouthed breath. It didn’t help, but it was all he could manage.
Mary laid her hand on his arm. “He told me to tell you he loved you.”
“Don’t say that.” It was the one thing he couldn’t hear. Not just now.
“He did. He told me he knew you would come home. And that he loved you, and you were his son. In his heart, you were his son.”
He covered his face with his hands and found himself pressing tight, tighter, as if he could squeeze this all away. Why was he surprised? There was no reason he should be. William was not a young man; he’d been nearly forty when he married Mary. Did he think that life would have stood still in his absence? That no one would have changed, or grown…or died?
“I should have come back,” he said. “I should have-Oh, God, I’m such an idiot.”