The words played themselves like ghost messages in Odrade's mind as she looked at the gathering darkness outside the Dar-es-Balat penthouse. A great loneliness welled up in her. All the others had gone from this room.
Only the punished one remains!
How bright-eyed Sheeana had been in that room above the Great Square, her mind so full of questions. "Why do you always talk about hurting and punishment?"
"You must learn discipline. How can you control others when you cannot control yourself?"
"I don't like that lesson."
"None of us does very much... until later when we've learned the value of it by experience."
As intended, that response had festered long in Sheeana's awareness. In the end, she had revealed all she knew about the dance.
"Some of the dancers escape. Others go directly to Shaitan. The priests say they go to Shai-hulud."
"What of the ones who survive?"
"When they recover, they must join a great dance in the desert. If Shaitan comes there, they die. If Shaitan does not come, they are rewarded."
Odrade had seen the pattern. Sheeana's explanatory words had not been necessary beyond that point, even though the recital had been allowed to continue. How bitter Sheeana's voice had been!
"They get money, space in a bazaar, that kind of reward. The priests say they have proved that they are human."
"Are the ones who fail not human?"
Sheeana had remained silent for a long time in deep thought. The track was clear to Odrade, though: the Sisterhood's test of humanity! Her own passage into the acceptable humanity of the Sisterhood had already been duplicated by Sheeana. How soft that passage seemed in comparison to the other pains!
In the dim light of the museum penthouse, Odrade held up her right hand, looking at it, remembering the agony box, and the gom jabbar poised at her neck ready to kill her if she flinched or cried out.
Sheeana had not cried out, either. But she had known the answer to Odrade's question even before the agony box.
"They are human but different."
Odrade spoke aloud in the empty room with its displays from the Tyrant's no-chamber hoard.
"What did you do to us, Leto? Are you only Shaitan talking to us? What would you force us to share now?"
Was the fossil dance to become fossil sex?
"Who are you talking to, Mother?"
It was Sheeana's voice from the open doorway across the room. Her gray postulant's robe was only a faint shape there, growing larger as she approached.
"Mother Superior sent me for you," Sheeana said as she came to a stop near Odrade.
"I was talking to myself," Odrade said. She looked at the strangely quiet girl, remembering the gut-wrenching excitement of that moment when the Fulcrum Question had been asked of Sheeana.
"Do you wish to be a Reverend Mother?"
"Why are you talking to yourself, Mother?" There was a load of concern in Sheeana's voice. The Teaching Proctors would have their hands full removing those emotions.
"I was remembering when I asked you if you wished to be a Reverend Mother," Odrade said. "It prompted other thoughts."
"You said I must give myself to your direction in all things, holding back nothing, disobeying you in nothing."
"And you said: 'Is that all?' "
"I didn't know very much, did I? I still don't know very much."
"None of us does, child. Except that we're all in the dance together. And Shaitan will certainly come if the least of us fails."
When strangers meet, great allowance should be made for differences of custom and training.
- The Lady Jessica, from "Wisdom of Arrakis"
The last greenish line of light fell out of the horizon before Burzmali gave the signal for them to move. It was dark by the time they reached the far side of Ysai and the perimeter road that was to lead them to Duncan. Clouds covered the sky, reflecting the city's lights downward onto the shapes of the urban hovels through which their guides directed them.
These guides bothered Lucilla. They appeared out of side streets and from suddenly opened doorways to whisper new directions.
Too many people knew about the fugitive pair and their intended rendezvous!
She had come to grips with her hatred but the residue was a profound distrust of every person they saw. Hiding this behind the mechanical attitudes of a playfem with her customer had become increasingly difficult.
There was slush on the pedestrian way beside the road, most of it scattered there by the passage of groundcars. Lucilla's feet were cold before they had gone half a kilometer and she was forced to expend energy compensating for the added bloodflow in her extremities.
Burzmali walked silently, his head down, apparently lost in his own worries. Lucilla was not fooled. He heard every sound around them, saw every approaching vehicle. He hustled them off the pathway each time a groundcar approached. The cars went swishing past on their suspensors, the dirty slush flying from under their fanskirts and peppering the bushes along the road. Burzmali held her down beside him in the snow until he was sure the cars were out of sight and sound. Not that anyone riding in them could hear much except their own whirling passage.
They had been walking for two hours before Burzmali stopped and took stock of the way ahead. Their destination was a perimeter community that had been described to them as "completely safe." Lucilla knew better. No place on Gammu was completely safe.
Yellow lights cast an undershot glow on the clouds ahead of them, marking the location of the community. Their slushy progress took them through a tunnel under the perimeter road and up a low hill planted to some sort of orchard. The limbs were stark in the dim light.