"Not bad," I said. "Things are looking up."
"You seem very confident."
I shrugged.
"You've got everything under control?" Julia said.
I shrugged again.
"By the way, where is Mae?"
"I don't know. Why?"
"Bobby's been looking for her. He can't find her anywhere."
"I have no idea," I said. "Why were you looking for her?"
"We thought we should all be together," Julia said, "when we finish our business here."
Chapter 22
"Oh," I said. "Is that what happens now? We finish?"
She nodded slowly. "Yes, Jack. It is."
I couldn't risk looking at my watch, I had to try and gauge how much time had passed. I was guessing three or four minutes. I said, "So, what do you have in mind?" Julia began to pace. "Well, Jack, I'm very disappointed in how things have gone with you. I really am. You know how much I care about you. I would never want anything to happen to you. But you're fighting us, Jack. And you won't stop fighting. And we can't have that."
"I see," I said.
"We just can't, Jack."
I reached in my pocket and brought out a plastic cigarette lighter. If Julia or the others noticed, they gave no sign.
She kept pacing. "Jack, you put me in a difficult position."
"How's that?"
"You've been privileged to witness the birth of something truly new, here. Something new and miraculous. But you are not sympathetic, Jack."
"No, I'm not."
"Birth is painful."
"So is death," I said.
She continued to pace. "Yes," she said. "So is death." She frowned at me.
"Something the matter?"
"Where is Mae?" she said again.
"I don't know. I don't have the faintest idea."
She continued to frown. "We have to find her, Jack."
"I'm sure you will."
"Yes, we will."
"So you don't need me," I said. "Just do it on your own. I mean, you're the future, if I remember right. Superior and unstoppable. I'm just a guy."
Julia started walking around me, looking at me from all sides. I could see she was puzzled by my behavior. Or appraising. Maybe I had overdone it. Gone too far. She was picking up something. She suspected something. And that made me very nervous. I turned the cigarette lighter over in my hands, nervously.
"Jack," she said. "You disappoint me."
"You said that already."
"Yes," she said. "But I am still not sure ..."
As if on some unspoken cue the men all began to walk in circles. They were moving in concentric circles around me. Was this some kind of scanning procedure? Or did it mean something else?
I was trying to guess the time. I figured five minutes had elapsed.
"Come, Jack. I want to look more closely."
She put her arm on my shoulder and led me over to one of the big octopus arms. It was easily six feet across, and mirrored on its surface. I could see Julia standing next to me. Her arm over my shoulder.
"Don't we make a handsome couple? It's a shame. We could have such a future."
I said, "Yeah, well ..."
And the moment I spoke, a river of pale particles streamed off Julia, curved in the air, and came down like a shower all over my body and into my mouth. I clamped my mouth shut, but it didn't matter, because in the mirror my body seemed to dissolve away, to be replaced by Julia's body. It was as if her skin had left her, flowed into the air, and slid down over me. Now there were two Julias standing side by side in front of the mirror. I said, "Cut it out, Julia."
She laughed. "Why? I think it's fun."
"Stop it," I said. I sounded like myself, even though I looked like Julia. "Stop it."
"Don't you like it? I think it's amusing. You get to be me, for a while."
"I said, stop it."
"Jack, you're just no fun anymore."
I pulled at the Julia-image on my face, trying to tear it away like a mask. But I felt only my own skin beneath my fingertips. When I scratched at my cheek, the Julia-cheek showed scratches in the mirror. I reached back and touched my own hair. In my panic, I dropped the cigarette lighter. It clattered on the concrete floor.
"Get it off me," I said. "Get it off."
I heard a whoosh in my ears, and the Julia-skin was gone, sweeping into the air, then descending onto Julia. Except that she now looked like me. Now there were two Jacks, side by side in the mirror.
"Is this better?" she said.
"I don't know what you are trying to prove." I took a breath.
I bent over and picked up the lighter.
"I'm not trying to prove anything," she said. "I'm just feeling you out, Jack. And you know what I found? You've got a secret, Jack. And you thought I wouldn't find it out."
"Yes?"
"But I did," she said.
I didn't know how to take her words. I wasn't sure where I was anymore, and the changes in appearance had so unnerved me that I had lost track of the time. "You're worried about the time, aren't you, Jack," she said. "You needn't be. We have plenty of time. Everything is under control here. Are you going to tell us your secret? Or do we have to make you tell?"
Behind her, I could see the stacked monitor screens of the control station. The corner ones had a flashing bar along the top, with lettering that I couldn't read. I could see that some of the graphs were rising steeply, their lines turning from blue to yellow to red as they climbed. I did nothing.