I turned the lock and pushed open the door. This place was more than a workshop; it was my retreat from the world of fine china and straight-backed chairs and weak tasteless tea. I liked coming here alone, where I could hide from the world, tucked under the patchwork quilt on my bed. I had worried that by bringing Edward here, that precious balance would be upset. But as I watched him rubbing Sharkey’s head and leaning against the rough wood of the stairwell, he seemed to fit so naturally.
“Come inside,” I said softly. “No one knows about this place. You’ll be well hidden here.”
It took a lot for me to say that—to invite a murderer into my one private space. But in a twist of fate, watching him shift the dog from one arm to the other and brush back a loose strand of hair, I felt strangely safe with him.
Safe with a murderer. With Edward. Perhaps this was how madness started.
Sharkey jumped out of his arms and curled up by the hearth. Edward came in hesitantly, scratching the back of his neck, looking uncomfortable in a lady’s room. I lit the lamp and nodded toward the woodstove. “Will you stir the coals? I’ll put the kettle on.”
He bent to swing open the iron grate and add wood to the fire. While his back was turned, I chewed on a fingernail and tried not to steal glances at his frame, so much stronger than I’d remembered. Having him here triggered so many memories. A sun-scarred castaway on the Curitiba’s deck, clutching a crumpled photograph. A boy holding me close in a cave behind a waterfall. The one person beside me who wasn’t afraid to stand up to my father, when even Montgomery wouldn’t.
My left rib started to ache at the painful memories. Montgomery had the strength of a horse, and yet he’d been powerless in front of my father. I remembered being a little girl and listening through the laboratory keyhole as Father taught Montgomery how the circulatory system worked. It had hurt then, too, that Father was closer to a servant boy than to his own daughter. Perhaps I shouldn’t have blamed Montgomery. He’d had no other family; his father was a Dutch sailor he’d never known, his mother died when he was barely five, no siblings, no other servants his age. Of course he’d fallen under the spell of Father’s charms; any child that lonely would crave a connection wherever he could get it.
And yet I offered him love, I thought blackly. I chose him, but he didn’t choose me.
Edward closed the grate and rubbed his hands together in front of the fire with a boyish grin. I didn’t even consider trying to smile back. My heart was too shaken.
“Where did you get those clothes?” I asked. “They aren’t cheap, and neither is that gold pocket watch.”
He came to the cabinet, where the lantern tossed pools of light over his face. “The Beast keeps a room at a brothel in Soho—I wake there sometimes. He steals clothes and things from the wealthy patrons, always finds men close to my size . . . very thoughtful of the Beast.” The hints of a smile played on his mouth.
“This isn’t a joking matter.”
He swallowed. “I’m sorry—I don’t mean to make light of it. I’ve been staying in the Beast’s room and selling the stolen goods. I know it’s hardly proper, but a brothel’s good cover—I don’t know where else to go. People tend to overlook the screaming when I transform. . . .”
I shuddered at the thought. “You can’t go back there,” I said. “Sooner or later one of the patrons will report the theft, and if Scotland Yard comes to investigate and catches you, it’ll be all over the newspapers, and not long before Father’s mystery colleague gets his hands on you.” I nodded toward the bed, looking away before my cheeks warmed. “You can stay here.”
He nodded, and silence fell around us. He took out his pocket watch, toying with it just to fill the quiet. He wandered to the worktable, where I’d left the laboratory equipment in perfect order, the boiler and beakers and glass vials arranged in descending order of height. It wasn’t a vial he reached for, though, but one of the grafted rosebushes. I’d bound a single white rose to a bush of red, and he touched it as gently as a caress.
“You made these?”
I didn’t answer, afraid he’d point out how similar it was to father’s work, and how the placement of my laboratory equipment mirrored Father’s exactly.
“Yes,” I said at last.
“They’re beautiful.”
A surge of pride swelled in my heart. The kettle started whistling, and I nearly tripped over the dog to fetch it, along with my single mug. I poured him a cup and handed it to him, trying not to think about his compliment. “I’m not used to guests here. I’ve only the one cup.”
“Much obliged,” he said, taking the tea, and only then acknowledged the equipment. “And all of this?”
“I have to have it,” I said quickly. “The serum I take is failing. Father designed it for me as a baby, and as I get older, it’s less effective. I’m trying to cure myself, just like you are.” I let my hand fall over a crystal beaker. “That’s why I offered to help you.”
“Have you had any success?”
“Not yet,” I said, though my voice caught as my eyes fell on the cupboard shelf. A book glowed there in the faint lantern light. It was one of many books I kept on anatomy, and botany, and philosophy, but this one was special. It stood out like a temptation, or maybe an accusation.
It was my father’s journal.
I’d found it the day after Montgomery set me adrift from the island. He must have stowed it there along with the water and food and other supplies. For a while, I had resisted opening it. And yet once I discovered that his serum was failing me, the temptation to look had been too strong. I had opened that leather cover and read his notes—some scrawled, most in his painstakingly precise handwriting. I’d flipped through the pages, desperate for some clues about how to cure myself. And yet the journal hadn’t proven anything, half of it little more than lines of nonsense words and numbers strung together.