Shin interrupted him again. “Are you gonna let him spout this nonsense in front of the new recruits?” he asked my father. “Right before the attack? He’ll demoralize them!”
My fellow recruits did indeed seem shaken by Graham’s speech. As was I—but for a different reason. Everything he’d laid out matched my own suspicions with eerie accuracy, but I didn’t want to hear it. Shin was right: Worrying about abstractions and unanswerable questions just hours before the fight of our lives was a pointless—even harmful—distraction.
“You can’t stop the signal, pal!” Graham said. “I’ve also heard, from several reliable sources, that one of their scout ships crashed in Florida in the late eighties, only it wasn’t a drone. They recovered it with two dead Europan pilots, floating inside a pressurized fishbowl cockpit. Word is we’ve still got the bodies on ice in a bunker five miles beneath Wright-Patterson Air Force Base.”
“He’s just repeating old rumors,” Shin said. “Alliance gossip—bullshit stories that have been circulating through the ranks for decades. There’s no evidence to support any of it!”
“That’s not true and you know it, Shin-bone!” Graham said. “Why do you think the Sobrukai were designed to be aquatic extremophiles in the Chaos Terrain games? Because that’s how the Europans really look, man!” He turned to address me and the other new arrivals. “The Sobrukai overlord’s design was based on the biology of the real Europans. They just scaried him up for the public.”
“Well, it worked,” Debbie said. “I have nightmares about that overlord whenever I forget to skip the intro and mistakenly catch a glimpse of him—it, I mean.”
“Once again, I’m afraid the Graham Cracker over there is talking directly out of his ass,” Shin told us. “We have no idea if they’re cephalopods or not. That’s just a best guess, based on their current habitat. In reality, we don’t know if they’re carbon-based, or if they’re even indigenous to Europa.” He smiled at Debbie. “Don’t worry,” he said. “The overlord is made up. He was invented by Chaos Terrain to give the enemy a face—a villainous, slightly humanoid alien that humanity could rally against! Like Ming the Merciless or Darth Vader or Zod or—”
“I get the idea,” Debbie said. She shook her head. “For some reason, not knowing what they look like at all is even more terrifying.”
Whoadie and Milo both nodded. I glanced at my father again, but he was studying my face, as if trying to gauge my reaction to what I was hearing.
“Do you believe any of this stuff, General?” Debbie asked him. He hesitated a moment and exchanged looks with Graham before finally breaking his silence.
“I’m far more skeptical about those rumors than Graham,” he said. “However, I don’t entirely agree with Shin’s straightforward assessment of things either.” He glanced at me. “We’ve all had our share of arguments about this—with Admiral Vance, as well. We all interpret the limited data we have in a drastically different way.” He smiled faintly. “Part of being human, I guess.”
“You didn’t answer the question, General,” Whoadie pointed out. “What do you believe?”
“Yes, General,” Shin said. His tone was suddenly derisive. “Why don’t you be honest and tell them the truth. Tell your son the truth—about your ‘theory.’ That should really give morale an added boost around here, just before Zero Hour!”
Shin dropped his silverware onto his plate with a loud clatter, got up from the table, and walked out of the mess hall. My father watched him go.
Graham shrugged and continued eating. “The three of us have been arguing this subject for years,” he said. “Our differences in opinion were bound to come to a head today.”
“Shin’s just under an enormous amount of stress right now,” my father said. “We all are.”
“What was he talking about?” I asked. “About your theory?”
My father sighed and glanced at the others, who were all watching him intently—including Graham.
“Nearly everyone in the EDA at the command level agrees with Graham, in that the Europans’ behavior and tactics over the past forty-two years raise a lot of questions—at least from a human perspective.” He shook his head. “The problem is that no one has ever been able to agree on how to interpret them. Most of the people in command—people like Admiral Vance—lost interest in trying to communicate with the Europans after they began sending drones here to attack us.”
“Damn straight!” I said. “They declared war on us.”
“True,” he said. “But what if the Europans waited until now to attack because they have a hidden motive—one we still can’t ascertain? Maybe we’ve misinterpreted their actions? Or maybe they’ve misinterpreted ours?”
“What the fuck is there to misinterpret?” I heard myself ask. “They’re coming to kill us all, just like they’ve been promising to do since before any of us were born. The time for negotiating has passed, don’t you think?”
My father shrugged. He looked cornered. “I don’t know, Son,” he said. “Maybe.”
I stood up.
“Maybe? Did you say maybe?”
“Calm down, Zack,” my father said. “Let’s talk this through—”
“I’ve heard enough talk, General!” I said. “Shin is right. You’re supposed to be leading us into battle and inspiring us! Not—not dumping all of your own fear on us!”
My accusation seemed to detonate on his face like a bomb. His features began to contort, but I turned my back on him so I wouldn’t have to see the rest of his reaction.
I walked out of there as fast as I could without looking back.
WHEN I FINALLY stopped walking a few minutes later, I realized I was lost. So I pulled up the interactive map of the base on my QComm and used it to locate the nearest turbo elevator. I rode it down to the habitation level and then returned to where the living quarters were located. When I reached my room, I pressed my palm to the onyx panel beside the door and it slid open. The lights came on as I stepped inside.
The interior looked like a dorm room at Starfleet Academy. It had a symmetrical two-occupant layout, with a loft bed on either side, each enclosed in a transparent soundproofed box that could be blacked out with the touch of a button for privacy. Each loft also had a built in ladder, dresser, and uniform closet, and there was a large flatscreen television monitor embedded in the ceiling directly over each bed. There was also a small computer hutch beneath each bunk, with an ergonomic chair bolted to the floor. My backpack was sitting nearby.
I sat down at the computer, and its built-in monitor lit up, displaying a desktop with EDA logo wallpaper and a few program icons.
I took out the flash drive my father had given me and plugged it in.
I held my breath as the file list popped up. There were hundreds of text files saved on the drive, along with dozens of video files, all with similar filenames: “DearZack” followed by a six-digit numerical date. The first file was named DearZack100900.txt. October 9, 2000. A few days after my father was supposed to have died.
Dear Zack,
I’m not even sure how to start this letter. So much has happened in the past few days, and most of it still doesn’t seem real.
I’m writing you this letter from the moon. For real, kiddo. Your dad is on the moon!
You see, I didn’t really die in an explosion at the plant, like they told you and your mom. The government just made it look like I had died, because they need my help to fend off an alien invasion. I know that sounds ridiculous, like something out of a science fiction paperback or a late night movie. But there’s a reason for that! Star Wars, Star Trek—all of those sci-fi movies, novels, TV shows, and videogames I’ve been playing my whole life—they were all designed to prepare the people of the world for a real alien invasion. I’m still trying to wrap my head around it, but I know it’s true. I’ve already seen the evidence with my own eyes.
We still don’t know when the invasion will begin, so I’m not sure how long I’ll have to be away from you and your mom. Maybe it will only be a few months. But it could be years before I’m able to come back home. There’s also a chance I might get killed up here. If that happens, I don’t want you to spend the rest of your life believing your dad was just some loser sewage worker who died in a stupid accident before he ever did anything important with his life.
I want you to know who I really was, and what really happened to me. But more than anything, I need you to know how hard it was for me to leave you and your mom, and how hard it is now to know you both think I’m dead. Please know that I never would have put either of you through all of this if I felt like there was any other choice.
The government has promised to take care of my family while I’m away. They set up some sort of fake settlement for the accident, so you and Mom should never have to worry about money. You’ll be able to live a lot more comfortably than the three of us ever could have on a sewage worker’s salary, that’s for sure. I know it won’t make up for me being gone, but it does make me feel a little better.