My eyes flickered toward the exit behind him. Jethro followed my gaze. He side-stepped, waving his arm toward the temptation of running. “You want to leave? Go. If you’re so selfish to let others die for you, I’m not going to stop you. One phone call from me, Ms. Weaver, and it all ends for them.”
I didn’t move, deliberation a heavy cross on my shoulders. How could I sit there and let him take control of my life? But how could I ever live with myself if I ran?
He’d kill my family and there’d be nothing to run toward.
Everything was pointless.
I hunched, deliberately looking away from the exit.
Jethro came closer, crowding me into the booth. “Good choice. Now sit there, don’t move, and I’ll get you something that’ll make this easier.” He turned away, but not before I heard his murmured, “For me at least.”
I waited until he stood at the bar, smiling at the barmaid, before I opened a new message.
My hands shook, jiggling the phone, but I wouldn’t stop. He might not let me talk to people I love, but people I hated didn’t matter. The one person who drove me into this mess might be my only hope at surviving it.
If he forgave me.
Needle&Thread: Kite, I don’t do this lightly, but my life has taken a certain change and…well, I would like to be able to message you if it gets too much. I’m sorry I overstepped. I’m not going to say any more than…please. I need to be able to talk to you if I need to.
I pressed send, hating myself and how weak I sounded. He wouldn’t understand the strength and courage it’d taken to write that or bow into the meeker role. But I needed someone—a friend. And the sad part of my life was—I had none.
Resting my phone on the table, I stared unseeingly out of the window. Tears tried to take me hostage again, but I curled my hands, digging long nails into my palms. The pain gave me a distraction, letting me stay outwardly calm.
Jethro took his time, talking softly to the botoxed waitress. I wished he’d forget all about me so I could sneak out the door and never return.
My phone buzzed.
I’d never hoped for anything more in my life as I read the new message.
Kite007: Understand me too when I say I don’t forgive or forget lightly. But I appreciate your message and can’t deny you’ve got me intrigued. You’ve almost got me wanting to know what changed in your life to send you grovelling back to me. I’m not an idiot to know it must’ve been pretty big after what we said to each other. I’ll let you message me and reply on one condition.
There was nothing else. Glancing over at Jethro, he had his back to me waiting for his order. Still time. Still hope.
I swiftly messaged Kite back.
Needle&Thread: I accept. Whatever your condition.
Please just give me someone to talk to. No matter how cryptic and shallow he was, I needed it. So much.
Kite007: No details. I’ll reply as long as your messages don’t make me care. You’ve got the wrong man if you want sympathy.
I wanted to tell him to piss off. That he wasn’t worth it. But I swallowed my pride just as Jethro placed a single shot of white liquor in front of me. “Whoever you’re messaging, stop.”
Glaring into his light, unfeeling eyes, I flicked a curtain of hair over my shoulder.
In my first, but definitely not my last act of defiance, I typed a single word.
One word that gave me a shallow friend who didn’t care if I lived or died.
The only person I had left.
Needle&Thread: Deal.
I TRIED.
If anyone asked, I could tell the truth. I did try to stay a gentleman.
But who the fuck was I kidding? My manners had an expiration date, and Nila pushed me too far.
I guided her from the dismal excuse of a bar, through the terminal, and past security. Her arm stayed looped with mine, following submissively, obediently—like a good pet. Her feet glided in flat shoes, her dark eyes glazed but aware.
It’d been too easy. Both breaking my word and dissolving the tablet into her drink. I said I wouldn’t kidnap or drug her—that was before she showed some backbone in the coffee shop, and had the fucking audacity to ask me for something.
Sex? She willingly wanted some sort of meaningless connection with me? That pissed me off. I’d looked forward to taking that from her. The will. The desire. Stripping her of the choice before taking what she didn’t want to give.
You still can.
I just had some work ahead of me. I’d been too soft. Too gentile. It was time to make my prey fully understand the nightmare she’d walked into and put a stop to the stupid fantasises she entertained.
And I couldn’t think about her brother without wanting to fucking punch something. I shouldn’t have been so lenient. I didn’t care who she talked to as long as she remained mine to torment. But him—he could ruin everything. The Weaver men had been a constant pain in the arse since the Hawks started taking their women.
War had broken out. Lives were lost on both sides.
But we won. And would continue to win, because they were pussies and we were strong.
Nila didn’t say a word as I guided her down the airbridge and onto the plane. To an outsider she looked perfectly normal. Perhaps a little tired and spaced out, but content and not in any way distressed.
That was the wonder of this particular drug.
Externally, she acted the perfect part. Internally, I had no idea, nor cared how she felt. It wasn’t my problem if she saw everything that happened. Her mind was unhindered, but all motor control was stolen. And there was nothing she could do about it. She dealt with vertigo on a daily basis—this was no different. I’d taken her ability with the help of a simple chemical. In fact, I was kinder than vertigo, because I gave her something to hold onto.
Patting her hand that rested on my forearm, I guided her into business class. Pointing at the window seat, I waited till she sat heavily, then buckled her in. Her breathing remained low and regular, but when I sat beside her, took her hand, and guided her face to mine, I saw the truth.
She knew.
Everything.
Perfect. It’s time to begin.
Brushing black hair from her neck, I whispered, “I should warn you of something.” Running my fingers down the silky strands, I moved closer so I could breathe the threat. Silence was terrifying. Whispers petrifying. But barely spoken threats were the worst.
“Be afraid of me, Ms. Weaver. Be afraid because your life is now mine and I’m the master of everything that happens to you. But know this…it’s not just me you’ll have to fear.”