“Tomorrow, nine o’clock, I meet you at the diner. I’ll have five hundred dollars with me.” I sucked in breath and my body went still but Gray wasn’t done. “You’ll take it and be happy with that. You get no more. Not from me, never from Ivey.”
“Gray,” I whispered, giving his middle a squeeze but he didn’t move, didn’t look down at me, didn’t tear his eyes from Casey.
Casey didn’t move either, just stood on Gray’s front walk, glaring up at him.
“Am I wrong?” Gray asked into the silence. “You’re here to hit Ivey up.”
Casey visibly clenched his teeth.
Yep. Just as I knew and Gray knew, Gray was right.
My brother.
Gray continued, “Five hundred dollars. Tomorrow at the diner. Nine o’clock. Then you’re done and you do whatever you gotta do but Ivey isn’t part of it. Get me?”
Casey didn’t move or speak.
“You get me,” Gray muttered then ordered, “In your car, man, off my land and until I give the all-clear, you don’t come back. You do, the door doesn’t open. I pick up the phone and call the cops and I know you don’t want that. And you don’t know me so I’ll educate you, I do not make threats. You with me?”
Casey remained immobile and silent.
Gray waited.
I waited.
Then Gray was done waiting.
“Car, Casey,” he said softly and finished with, “now.”
Casey glared at him then he transferred it to me then he turned and stomped to his car.
I watched, holding onto Gray, trembling and not with cold.
Gray watched too, shifting only to wrap an arm around my shoulders and pull me deeper into him.
Casey got in his car, reversed too fast then sped down Gray’s lane.
When we lost sight of him, Gray immediately turned us and walked me swiftly into his house, shutting and locking the door.
I pulled away, looked up at him and whispered, “I’ll give you the five hundred dollars tomorrow to give to Casey.”
I had it. Yes, tips were that good. But it would be a huge hit.
“You fallin’ in love with me?”
Gray asked that and when he did my thoughts about my tip money going to Casey went up in flames and so did my cheeks and most of my body.
“Sorry?” I was still whispering.
“Are you falling in love with me?” Gray asked.
I stared in his deep blue eyes with their russet tipped lashes.
Then I said quietly, “Yes.”
Then suddenly it was me that was over Gray’s shoulder and we were going up the stairs.
Fast.
“Gray!” I cried, my hands holding onto his waist but he said not a word and we were up the stairs, down the hall and in his room in no time flat.
Then I was flying through the air then flat on my back in Gray’s bed.
Then Gray was on top of me.
“Right,” he said, both his hands moving to frame my face, “I wanna be inside you. Jesus, God, I wanna be inside you but I can’t have that, I can’t give you that so I’m gonna give you my mouth then teach you how to give me yours. That good for you?”
Oh my.
“Yes,” I whispered.
“Good,” he whispered back.
Then he kissed me.
Then he gave me his mouth.
Then he taught me how to give him mine.
It was unbelievably awesome.
And we were so into it, neither of us noticed we got crackers, cheese, apple and store bought cookies all over the bed.
Chapter Sixteen
I Looked Out for Me
Three weeks and three days later…
I opened my eyes and saw my pillow illuminated by weak, early morning in February Colorado sun.
But I felt Gray’s long, warm body curved into my back, his steady breath on my neck and his arm tight around my belly.
This was the third time we’d slept all night together.
I couldn’t wait for the day when it would happen all the time.
But it sucked that it happened last night because of what Casey did.
I closed my eyes and snuggled backward into Gray. He responded in his sleep by pressing deeper into me, taking me partly to my front, his arm curling tighter around me.
That was Gray. He gave even in his sleep.
I sighed.
Then the last three and a half weeks washed through my brain.
* * * * *
In those weeks I was surprised to find that normal was not boring and this didn’t have to do with Casey until last night.
I had always hankered after a routine, a pattern, steady money, steady life. But I found that Casey and I being on the road half our time, hanging in bars the other half and occasionally hustling someone at pool had more steadiness than everyday life.
This, I decided, had to do with the fact that steady meant most my time was spent with Casey.
In normal, my time was spent with everyone in Gray’s life and everyone who came in the bar which was to say pretty much everyone in Mustang.
For instance, Janie loved her man Danny and he was loveable. I’d met him, Gray and I had had a drink with him and Gray had known him for years. He was a big, burly bear of a man with a full beard, lots of long hair, an easy smile and a booming laugh. But that didn’t mean Danny and Janie didn’t fight and do it a lot. Which meant Janie came in complaining about him a lot. Their relationship was passionate and volatile and Janie didn’t mind sharing it. In detail.
Another example was that I met Macy, Gray’s aunt and I didn’t need to spend ten years honing the art of reading people to read instantly she had piss and vinegar. I knew this when she came right in the bar, all five foot four, square-bodied, big-boobed, permed-fluffy-mouse-brown-hair of her and gave me what for for taking a job with Janie at Mustang’s rival bar.
Then Janie got in her face on my behalf and I (and the patrons, the male ones looking on avidly) thought I’d have to break up a catfight. But surprisingly, when Janie explained I was restarting my life and my job came with the room over the bar, Macy backed down.
Then she turned her attention to me and announced, “So Mirry doesn’t ride your ass the rest of your life, you better learn how to cook. Lessons start your next day off. My house. Hear you don’t have a car so get Gray to get his fine ass in that POS truck ‘a his and get your fine ass to my house. Eleven o’clock. You’re makin’ lunch.”
Then she stomped out.
My next day off, grinning, Gray dropped me off at Olly and Macy’s house.
I learned how to make hamburgers and fries.
It wasn’t that hard.
Then came Gray’s Uncle Charlie who looked a lot like Gray if Gray had an extra twenty or so years, drank and ate five times more than he did and spent the vast majority of his time with his behind on a barstool or in a Barcalounger. And when I say Uncle Charlie came, I mean he came straight into the bar, straight up to me and started straight talking.