“Hey, Wanda! Hey, Ian!” Jamie was all grins, his messy hair bouncing when he moved. He headed for my reaching hand, but Ian was in his way. So he settled for sitting on the edge of my mattress and resting his hand on my foot. “How are you feeling?”
“Better.”
“Hungry yet? There’s beef jerky and corn on the cob! I could get you some.”
“I’m okay for now. How are you? I haven’t seen you much lately.”
Jamie made a face. “Sharon gave me detention.”
I smiled. “What did you do?”
“Nothing. I was totally framed.” His innocent expression was a bit overdone, and he quickly changed the subject. “Guess what? Jared was saying at lunch that he didn’t think it was fair for you to have to move out of the room you were used to. He said we weren’t being good hosts. He said you should move back in with me! Isn’t that great? I asked him if I could tell you right away, and he said that was a good idea. He said you would be in here.”
“I’ll bet he did,” Ian murmured.
“So what do you think, Wanda? We get to be roomies again!”
“But Jamie, where will Jared stay?”
“Wait—let me guess,” Ian interrupted. “I bet he said the room was big enough for three. Am I right?”
“Yeah. How did you know?”
“Lucky guess.”
“So that’s good, isn’t it, Wanda? It will be just like before we came here!”
It felt sort of like a razor sliding between my ribs when he said that—too clean and precise a pain to be compared to a blow or a break.
Jamie analyzed my tortured expression with alarm. “Oh. No, I mean but with you, too. It will be nice. The four of us, right?”
I tried to laugh through the pain; it didn’t hurt any worse than not laughing.
Ian squeezed my hand.
“The four of us,” I mumbled. “Nice.”
Jamie crawled up the mattress, worming his way around Ian, to put his arms around my neck.
“Sorry. Don’t be sad.”
“Don’t worry about it.”
“You know I love you, too.”
So sharp, so piercing, the emotions of this planet. Jamie had never said those words to me before. My whole body suddenly felt a few degrees warmer.
So sharp, Melanie agreed, wincing at her own pain.
“Will you come back?” Jamie begged against my shoulder.
I couldn’t answer right away.
“What does Mel want?” he asked.
“She wants to live with you,” I whispered. I didn’t have to check to know that.
“And what do you want?”
“Do you want me to live with you?”
“You know I do, Wanda. Please.”
I hesitated.
“Please?”
“If that’s what you want, Jamie. Okay.”
“Woo hoo!” Jamie crowed in my ear. “Cool! I’m gonna go tell Jared! I’ll get you some food, too, okay?” He was already on his feet, bouncing the mattress so that I felt it in my ribs.
“Okay.”
“You want something, Ian?”
“Sure, kid. I want you to tell Jared he’s shameless.”
“Huh?”
“Never mind. Go get Wanda some lunch.”
“Sure. And I’ll ask Wes for his extra bed. Kyle can come back in here, and everything will be like it should be!”
“Perfect,” Ian said, and though I didn’t look at his face, I knew he was rolling his eyes.
“Perfect,” I whispered, and felt the razor’s edge again.
CHAPTER 39
Worried
Perfect, I grumbled to myself. Just perfect.
Ian was coming to join me for lunch, a big smile glued into place on his face. Trying to cheer me up… again.
I think you’re overdoing the sarcasm lately, Melanie told me.
I’ll keep that in mind.
I hadn’t heard from her much in the past week. Neither of us was good company right now. It was better if we avoided social interaction, even with each other.
“Hey, Wanda,” Ian greeted me, hopping up onto the counter beside me. He had a bowl of tomato soup in one hand, still steaming. Mine was beside me, cooled and half full. I was toying with a piece of roll, ripping it into tiny pieces.
I didn’t answer him.
“Oh, come on.” He put his hand on my knee. Mel’s angry reaction was lethargic. She was too used to this kind of thing to really work up a good fit anymore. “They’ll be back today. Before sunset, without a doubt.”
“You said that three days ago, and two days ago, and again yesterday,” I reminded him.
“I have a good feeling about today. Don’t sulk—it’s so human,” he teased.
“I’m not sulking.” I wasn’t. I was so worried I could barely think straight. It didn’t leave me energy to do anything else.
“This isn’t the first raid Jamie’s gone on.”
“That makes me feel so much better.” Again with the sarcasm. Melanie was right—I really was overusing it.
“He’s got Jared and Geoffrey and Trudy with him. And Kyle’s here.” Ian laughed. “So there’s no way they’ll get into any trouble.”
“I don’t want to talk about it.”
“Okay.”
He turned his attention to his food and let me stew. Ian was nice that way—always trying to give me what I wanted, even when what I wanted was unclear to either of us. His insistent attempts to distract me from the present anxiety excepted, of course. I knew I didn’t want that. I wanted to worry; it was the only thing I could do.