The rest of the drawer yields some packets of letters with weird groupings of letters on them. Some sort of code. Maybe his secret orders from the Admiralty. I don't know. We shall see.
That's about it. Another watch. Some rings and snuffboxes and such, but that's it. No letters from a wife. No Dear Papa notes. No locks of hair, no miniature portraits. I close up the drawer and lock it and tie the key once again around my waist.
As I come out of the cabin, Higgins is there with the noon meal, with a white cloth neatly covering it. No, no, I can't possibly eat anything in there.
"The Captain is sleeping ...," I say and glance over at Corporal Martin, the Marine on duty, and he blushes. Hmm. I see my little act worked. "... and I don't wish to disturb him. I will take my dinner below."
I go to take the tray but Higgins says, "Please, Miss, let me. I must get some things and I'll meet you down there with Mr. Raeburne."
Now, how did he know I've been taking food down to Robin? You are turning out to be quite a fellow, Higgins.
I take a turn on deck and Higgins beats me down to the brig. He has found a small table and placed it next to the bars close to Robin's bench, and he has found a chair for me to sit upon. He pulls it out as I approach, and I sit. There is a clean tablecloth on the table and the settings are arranged perfectly. The glasses are polished and twinkle in the dim light.
Higgins pours the wine and serves the food and retreats to the passageway. I know I have only to call and he will appear.
"Robin. Show some cheer. You are to be released tomorrow. I have arranged it." Hmmm ... perhaps not a good choice of words on my part.
"How can you stand it? How can you stand him doing that to ..." He looks even more disheveled and wild-eyed.
"Now, Robin. None of that. Come, look at this wonderful dinner Higgins has made for us. A glass of wine with you."
I can see that it all still tortures him and makes him writhe with impotent fury. He eats but seems to take no joy in it. He does throw down the wine, though.
This whole time, since I first went into the Captain's cabin that evening, Robin has not asked me for a kiss or an embrace or anything of that sort, and I think I know why. Though he has said he would still marry me, and I believe him on that, that would be something that might happen in the future. Right now, he can't bring himself to touch something the Captain has touched, kiss something the Captain has kissed, or embrace something the Captain has taken and defiled.
We eat mostly in silence.
Later, as I go out for my swordsmanship lesson, I notice four sets of boyish legs hanging over the edge of the fore-top. One set of legs is whiter, less tanned than the others, but the feet are as bare and the pants are folded up over the knees like the others. Are you looking up at the clouds as they roll past, lads? Are you making plans, boasting of future glory, swearing oaths of eternal brotherhood to each other?
Even though I am glad to see them so, it gives me a bit of a pang to think back on how my own bare and tanned legs would dangle over the edge of the foretop on the Dolphin, not so very long ago.
Ah, thoughts of the past—always rosier than they actually were. My reveries end when Peter Drake steps up on the hatch for the lesson. We bow to each other and lift our foils. En garde!
Afterwards, when the session is about over, Drake says, "You have been coming along. I did not think it possible, but you have attained a measure of skill in a very short time. A small measure, to be sure, but still ..." He trails off, maybe slightly embarrassed? "Please wait here, if you please," and he goes off.
What?
In a moment he is back, bearing something wrapped in a cloth. "This is for your efforts ... in spite of your ... troubles ... in trying to make this a real fighting ship."
I take the bundle from his hands and unwrap it. It is a sword and scabbard with leather harness.
"Why ... why, thank you, Drake," I say, looking in wonder at the thing. "I don't know what to say..."
"I have daughters, Miss," he says by way of some explanation. "Here. Permission to touch?"
I nod and say yes and he takes the belt and wraps it around my waist and cinches it tight. Then another strap of leather goes across my chest, over my shoulder, and back down across my back to attach again to the belt, to support the weight of the sword and scabbard, which Drake now snaps onto a ring on the harness. The sword hangs easily to my side.
"There," he says. "It is to be hoped that someday you shall tell your grandchildren how you once trod the deck of a Royal Navy ship with a proper sword by your side!"
I pull out the blade. It gleams as it comes out of the scabbard.
"The smithy had the forge fired up yesterday. I took a standard rapier and cut it down some in length, then pounded and tempered the blade and sharpened it all the way down until just above the hilt. I shortened the pommel—it fits your hand, I trust?" It fits my hand perfectly. I nod. "And I changed the hand guard from the simple bell to a more saberlike protection for your hand."
As always, when someone does anything really nice for me, my eyes start to well up. He sees and says, "None of that, now. We must exercise with your new weapon now. Carefully, though, as I've no wish to lose an eye. En garde!"
That evening, after I stand the Second Dog and turn the ship to the south, I go into the cabin to try to get a good night's sleep. I'll have the Four to Eight and things will change forever right after that.
But before I do that I kneel down and take the sword in my two hands. You shall be Persephone, after the Greek goddess who was condemned to spend half of each year in Hell as the consort of Hades, the Lord of the Underworld.
I look over at the shape of my would-be consort lying dead in the bed. You Gods, both Greek and Christian, know that I, too, have gone through some sort of hell down here, so Persephone you shall be.
I clutch Persephone to my chest as I curl up next to the door, my nose sucking up the fresh air from the outside.
And so the deception continues. Until tomorrow.
Chapter 17
I step off the quarterdeck at eight in the morning, having been relieved by a very sleepy Ned. I pat his shoulder. Don't worry, Ned. Your one-in-three watches will soon end, however things go for me.
The Four-to-Eight watch was uneventful. No flashing lights from the shore, but I learned from Tom that there had been some on his watch. Good.
I send word to Higgins that the Captain and I will want no breakfast today.
It is a beautiful morning with a nice alongshore breeze. We have just turned to the southern leg. I stand at the rail for a long time, looking out toward France. I wait, and I enjoy the day. I take a turn around the deck. I wait.
I go to inspect the guns. They are in good order. Swabs and wads in place. Everything clean, all lines and carriages taut.
At about ten o'clock, I go back out to the quarterdeck and take a long glass and climb up the ratlines into the maintop and look out toward the coast. The ship rolls along and it feels good under me and...
There! Another smuggler has nosed his way out from the coast, seeking, once again, to cross our wake without incident. Why am I not surprised? Did those flashing lights tell me something? I think they did, and if not, they will.
I take a deep breath and turn to the business at hand.
I send word for Bo'sun Morgan and for Higgins.
"Bo'sun, I want you to have the table from the officers' mess brought up and set it there on Three Hatch. I want there to be five chairs. One at the head, two on that side, one on that side, and one at the foot." The Bo'sun looks confused but decides not to argue, and he goes to have it done.
"Higgins, I want the table placed fore and aft. Set the table for five, two places on one long side, one place on each of the other sides. You will set out five glasses and place a bottle of the finest ... Madeira, yes, on the table. You may draw the wine from the Captain's stores. Understand?" He bows and withdraws.
Tucker is the Messenger of the Watch. "Tucker," I say, "go get Mr. Wheeler. Wake up Corporal Martin and ask him to lay to the quarterdeck. I'll need Earweg, the loblolly boy, too. Be respectful, but do it. And when you have done all that, tell Jack Harkness and Joseph Jared that their presence is requested on Three Hatch. Oh, and have the Master of Arms bring up Mr. Raeburne from the brig. That is all."
I go down to the cabin, hearing the buzz of curiosity behind me. I know that as soon as my foot touches the deck on my way out, the entire ship will know of the table, and wonder at it.
I go down to the cabin and I strap on Persephone, then I go and get the pistols, and after checking that they are loaded, jam one into my cross-chest strap and one into my belt. My trousers are tucked into my boots. So, looking like the perfect pirate queen ... I hope ... I go back on deck.
They are all there: Tom Wheeler, Earweg, Seaman Harkness, Seaman Jared, and, standing between the two Marines and next to the Master-at-Arms Drake is the prisoner Midshipman Robin Raeburne, his hands shackled together in front of him. He blinks at the light and then looks at me. I do not smile or otherwise acknowledge his gaze. He lifts his chin and casts his eyes about, probably looking for the noose. I'm sure he suspects that the reason for all this is that he will be hanged today by order of the Captain for his mutinous conduct, in spite of what I had told him. After all, I'm just a girl. What influence could I possibly have with the cruel and vile Captain Scroggs?
I'm sure the crew also thinks that this is what is about to happen, as there is a low hum of sympathy, I believe, for the young man. Robin takes a deep breath and looks calmly off into eternity, a noble expression on his face.
Good for you, lad.
I go to the chair at the head of the table and Higgins pulls out my chair. I sit down, carefully. I know I present quite a sight already and I don't want to look ridiculous by tripping over my sword and sprawling across the deck. My back is to the quarterdeck, which holds only the helmsman and Ned. I face the entire crew, both those on the deck and those in the rigging. That is how I arranged it to be.
Higgins fills my glass with the sweet wine. I don't touch it.
"Mr. Raeburne, you will please sit there, next to me, and, Drake, if you would sit there." Higgins goes over and pulls out the chair for Robin. He looks confused, but he sits down, with Drake, looking guarded, next to him. The Master-at-Arms has to sit next to him because he's holding the end of the chain. I would have Robin unshackled, but I don't have the authority to do that on my own. Not yet, I don't.
Higgins fills his glass and that of Drake. Robin doesn't touch it, but only looks intently at me, me who's trying my best to look calm and collected. With Robin chained the way he is, I don't think he could reach the glass, anyway. Drake doesn't touch his, either.
The ship is dead quiet now, and I don't think there's a soul aboard who ain't listening in to all this.
"Harkness, if you would be so good as to sit here"—I motion to the place to my left—"and Jared, if you will sit there ..." and I nod to the place opposite me.
They look at each other with eyebrows raised in question, but they do it. Higgins does not pull out their chairs, but he does pour the wine into their glasses. They do not reach for them.
I say nothing for a while. I look about as if this was just a jolly family outing, here out on the shining sea. Finally, I say, "I must commend the crew and especially you, Jared, and you, Harkness, for your performance over the last few days. I think I can safely say the ship is in fighting trim." They say nothing, only nod in a guarded way.