Ryke is on the hunt for the remote again, and before the reporter gives any contact info he finally finds it and shuts the television off.
I don’t ask what he knows about the whole ordeal. I can tell that he’s through talking about it. I was lucky enough to get what I did out of him today.
36
RYKE MEADOWS
We’ve made some progress towards California. Not much. But we’re getting there.
Before the sun fell, we arrived at the heart of the Smoky Mountains. Like I said, we’re still f**king far away. But the point of this trip isn’t to speed to California. It’s for my brother to relax, breathe, and try to find some inner-fucking-peace.
I could use some of that too.
Connor spins on his expensive loafers that sink into the muddy dirt. This image is so priceless: Connor Cobalt in a f**king suit standing in the middle of the woods and looking—probably for the first time in his life—like he doesn’t belong.
If he was trying to schmooze an advertising exec and planned a wilderness retreat, he’d put on a fake f**king smile and dress down to fit in. But there isn’t any reward in pitching a tent for him right now. He just has to do it because we’re friends and we told him so.
“You okay there, Cobalt?” I ask.
He shoots me the middle finger. I see the annoyance flicker in his eyes. It’s easier to catch his emotions the more you know him.
Lo smiles. “Hey, look at that. Connor has adopted Ryke’s native language.”
“Why aren’t we staying in a hotel again?” Connor asks me. “Not that I don’t love to see how you like to live, Ryke, but some of us prefer a bed to the ground.”
“It’s called camping,” I retort.
Connor gives me a look. “I’d forgotten the definition of camping. Now that you reminded me, the whole world is clear.” His real irritation, however, comes from his phone. He raises it at the sky, trying to achieve cell signal. He’s already worried about Rose, and now that he’s losing communication with her, he’s becoming a bigger ass**le.
Good thing I can handle most personalities, even Connor Cobalt’s conceited one.
“For someone so f**king smart, you sure as hell love to act stupid around me.”
“Like Lo said,” Connor says, half-distracted as he presses buttons on his cell, “I’m trying to tap into your way of living.” He just called me dumb. He lets out a frustrated sigh and pockets his phone. “So far it sucks.” And he hightails it back to the car to help Daisy unload the supplies.
Lo kicks some rocks and twigs away from the place where we’re setting the tents, clearing anything sharp that’ll dig into our backs. He does so with a distant gaze, lost inside his head.
“Hey.” I come up beside him. “You want to go to a f**king hotel too?”
He glances at the thick woods that surround us and gestures towards the pines. “Don’t act like you didn’t see an RV past those trees.” He points at the tall ones that seclude us from the other campsites.
It’s a national park. There are other campers. I can’t change that. But at least we have some privacy. I recognize his fears though. This trip is supposed to be paparazzi free. For us to live off the grid and be absent of the media.
That’s what I promised him.
If some road-tripping family recognizes us, snaps some pictures and posts them to the web, we’re f**ked. But this is the best I can do.
“They’re not going to find us here, Lo.”
His eyes darken, not completely trusting me. I don’t know if he ever will. “In rehab they had a five-star gourmet chef on call. Your pseudo-rehab isn’t really living up to my expectations.”
“I’m sorry I didn’t hire a f**king butler or maid, and I forgot to pack those scented toilettes you use to wipe your ass,” I snap. He’s not a rich snob that he makes himself out to be. He just likes to poke people until he sees a reaction. “If you want to go to rehab in New York, I’m not f**king stopping you, Lo. I’m just giving you another option.” I outstretch my arms. “Open air. Freedom from the media. A normal f**king life for a month. Something that the rehab center isn’t going to provide you with.” At least not when everyone there will know he’s Loren Hale. Another celebrity checking themselves into the center.
Like clockwork.
I wait for his response, and Connor returns, watching my brother as well, seeing what his decision will be. I can support either choice, but I want to be available if he goes to rehab. I can’t be on the road with shitty cell reception while he’s back in New York.
So if he chooses rehab, this trip to California is over. For Daisy, for me. I’d pick my brother in this instance. I have to.
After a long moment of silence, Lo looks at me. “Hotdogs and hamburgers tonight?”
My limbs loosen in relief. “Yeah,” I say with a nod. “You okay with that?”
“As long as Connor doesn’t cook them. He doesn’t understand that medium-rare means red and bloody.”
“No, I understand the meaning of medium-rare,” Connor counters. “I just also understand the meaning of Escherichia coli.”
“Why the f**k can’t you just say E. coli?” I ask.
“Because abbreviations are lazy and I’m clearly not.”
I shouldn’t have asked.
Daisy tries to carry a stack of fold-out chairs in her arms all at once. I take a step forward to go help her, but Lo puts his hand on my chest. “I’ve got this.” He pats my shoulder with force, silently warning me, and then sprints to catch Daisy before she falls.
She laughs while he takes two chairs off her pile.
“You’re glaring,” Connor tells me.
“Fuck off.” Though I do try to lessen the agitation that tenses my jaw.
“Maybe try acting like you don’t want to murder your brother for stepping in your way.”
“It’s hard,” I say truthfully. I scratch my neck. “What would you do if you were me?” Maybe it’s masochistic of me to ask after what happened at the motel. But I want to hear his answer anyway.
“If I were you? You mean if I was screwing an eighteen-year-old girl who’s my brother’s girlfriend’s little sister, whose mother hates me because I’m the spawn of Sara Hale, and whose father dislikes likes me because he’s protective over his youngest, wildest daughter?”
I open my mouth to chew him out, but he cuts me off.
“But if I’m you,” he says with the tilt of his head, “I’ve also been there for that girl. When she had an ape of a boyfriend, when she was alone and all backs were turned, when she was going through heavier things than all of us realized.” His calm tone soothes any anger that threatens to rise. Just like that. “If I were you, Ryke, I’d stop letting people see the worst parts of me, and I’d finally show them the good.” He shrugs. “But I’m clearly not you.” He stares around at the forest landscape. “And you’re not me.”
“I just don’t see what good it’ll do to have those f**king arguments.” I don’t want to fight. I just want to leave it all behind. I watch Daisy unfold all of the chairs with Lo. He motions to her messily cut hair, and she shows him the back, the blonde strands uneven. He shakes his head, but her face has never been brighter, even with a scar.
“Why does there have to be an argument?” Connor asks.