The words unsettled, but she refused to show him. He wasn’t a killer. She knew that better than anyone.
He might not have killed you . . . but you haven’t any idea what he’s done since.
Nonsense. He wasn’t a killer. He was simply angry. Which she’d expected, hadn’t she? Hadn’t she prepared for it? Hadn’t she considered her options before donning her cloak and heading out into the streets to find him?
She’d been alone for twelve years. She’d learned to take care of herself. She’d learned to be strong.
He moved away from her then, heading for one chair near the fireplace. “You might as well sit. You’re not going anywhere.”
Unease threaded through her at the words. “What does that mean?”
“It means that you turned up outside my door, Miss Lowe. And I have no intention of letting you escape again.”
Her heart pounded. “I’m to be your prisoner, then?”
He did not reply, but his earlier words echoed through her. You’re mine, now.
Dammit. She’d made a dreadful miscalculation.
And he left her little choice.
Ignoring the way he waved at the other seat by the hearth, she headed for the decanter on the far end of the sideboard, pouring first one, then a second glass, carefully measuring the liquid.
She turned to face him, noting one dark brow raised in accusation.
“I am allowed a drink, am I not? Or do you plan to take that along with your pound of flesh?”
He seemed to think about his response before saying, “You are welcome to it.”
She crossed the room and offered him the second glass, hoping he would not see the shaking in her hand. “Thank you.”
“You think politeness will win you points?”
She sat down on the edge of the chair across from him. “I think it cannot hurt.” He drank, and she exhaled, staring down at the liquid, marking time before she said, “I did not want to do this.”
“I don’t imagine you did,” he said, wryly. “I imagine you’ve quite enjoyed twelve years of freedom.”
That wasn’t what she’d meant, but she knew better than to correct him. “And if I told you I haven’t always enjoyed it? That it hasn’t always been easy?”
“I would counsel against telling me those things. I find that I’ve lost my sympathetic ear.”
She narrowed her gaze on him. “You are a difficult man.”
He drank again. “A symptom of twelve years of solitude.”
“I didn’t mean for it to happen the way it did,” she said, realizing even as she spoke the words that they were revealing more than she’d been willing to reveal. “We did not recognize you.”
He stilled. “We?”
She did not reply.
“ We? ” He leaned forward. “Your brother. I should have fought him when he asked. He deserves a trouncing. He was . . .” He hesitated. She held her breath. “He helped you run. He helped you . . .” He lifted a hand to his head. “ . . . drug me .”
His black eyes went wide with shock and realization, and she shot up from her chair, heart pounding.
He followed, coming to his full height—more than six feet, tall and broad and bigger than any man she’d ever known. When they were younger, she’d marveled at his size. She’d been intrigued by it.
Drawn to it.
He interrupted her thoughts. “You drugged me!”
She put the chair between them. “We were children,” she defended herself.
What’s your excuse now?
He hadn’t given her any choice.
Liar.
“Goddammit!” he said, his glass falling from his hand as he lunged toward her, missing his mark, catching himself on the edge of the chair. “You did it . . . again . . .”
And he collapsed to the floor.
I t was one thing to drug a man once . . . but twice did seem overmuch. Even in one lifetime. She wasn’t a monster, after all.
Not that he would believe that when he woke.
Mara stood over the Duke of Lamont, now felled like a great oak in his own study, and considered her options.
He hadn’t given her any choice.
Perhaps if she kept telling herself that, she’d believe it. And she’d stop feeling guilty about the whole thing.
He’d threatened to keep her prisoner, like some monster.
Which of them was the monster?
Good Lord, he was enormous.
And intimidating, somehow, despite being unconscious.
And handsome, though not in a classical way.
He was all size and force, even motionless. Her gaze tracked the length of him, the long arms and legs in perfectly tailored clothes, the cords of his neck peeking out from above the uncravatted collar of his shirt, the stretch of bronze to his strong jaw and dimpled chin, and the scars.
Even with the scars, the angles of his face betrayed his aristocratic lineage, all sharp edges and long slopes—the kind that set women to swooning.
Mara couldn’t entirely blame them for swooning.
She’d nearly swooned herself, once.
Not nearly. Had .
When he was young, he’d been quick to smile, baring straight white teeth and an expression that promised more than pleasantry. That promised pleasure. His size, combined with that ease, had been so calm, so unpracticed that she’d thought him anything but the aristocracy. A stable boy. Or a footman. Or perhaps a member of the gentry, invited by her father to the enormous wedding that would make his daughter a duchess.
He’d looked like someone who did not have to worry about appearances.
It hadn’t occurred to her that the heir to one of the most powerful dukedoms in the country would be the most carefree gentleman for miles. Of course, it should have. She should have known the moment that they came together in that cold garden and he smiled at her as though she were the only woman in Britain and he the only man, that he was an aristocrat.
But she hadn’t.
And she certainly hadn’t imagined that he was the Marquess of Chapin. The heir to the dukedom to which she would soon become duchess. Her future stepson.
The man sprawled across mahogany and carpet didn’t look anything stepson-like.
But she would not think on that.
She crouched low to check his breathing, taking no small amount of relief in the way his wide chest rose and fell beneath his jacket in even strokes. Her heart pounded, no doubt in fear—after all, if he were to wake, he would not be happy.
She gave a little huff of laughter at the thought.
Happy was not the word.
He would not be human.
And then, with the giddiness of panic coursing through her, she did something she never would have imagined doing. Or, rather, she would have imagined doing, but never would have found the courage to do.
She touched him.
Her hand was moving before she could stop it. Before she really even knew what she was about. But then her fingers were on his skin—smooth and warm and alive. And ever so tempting.
Her fingers traced the angles of his face, finding the smooth ridges of the inch-long white scar along the bone at the base of his left eye, then down the barely-there bumps and angles of his once-perfect nose, her chest tightening as she considered the battles that would have produced the breaks. The pain of them.
The life he’d lived to wear them.
The life she’d given him.
“What happened to you?” The question came out on a whisper.
He did not answer, and her touch slid to his final scar, at the curve of his lower lip.