A full-body shudder wracks Gray, and his fingers tighten on my hips. But he takes a breath and steps back. “Damn it, Mac,” he says with a husky laugh, “I can’t be boarding the team bus with a massive hard-on.”
“I kind of like the image, but okay.” Putting some needed distance between us, I lean against the arm of the couch. “I hear your dad is going to be at the game.”
His nose wrinkles on a scowl. “Way to go with the bone kill. Yeah, I suppose he is.” Gray fidgets with the white cuffs peeking out from his coat sleeves. “And how the hell did you know that, anyway?”
“Pfft. I’ve got connections you can only dream of.” My teasing fades. “Are you going to talk to him?”
Not looking at me, Gray shrugs. “Maybe. I guess after the game.”
“Just get it over with, Gray. Like ripping off a bandage.”
He makes a rude noise, then eyes me. “And then we celebrate with a little bondage and light sexual torture?”
I laugh, pretending that heat isn’t swelling between my legs. “Not my choice of words, but yeah, that’s what we’ll do.”
His smile is evil. In two steps he has me. Soft lips kiss my forehead, eyes, nose, chin, mouth. “Every inch, Mac.”
I press a kiss to his lips. “Every inch, Gray. Now go kick some ass.”
Thirty-Two
Gray
“So are you engaged now?” Dex asks me as peers into his locker mirror and begins to smear on eye black.
Smiling, I continue wrapping my wrists. “More like engaged to be engaged.”
Which I’m totally cool with. Ivy’s wearing my ring, and that brings out the caveman in me. Better yet, she wants me as much as I want her. It’s all I need.
“And the dreams of horny chicks all over the sporting world are dashed,” Johnson pipes in from the other side of me.
“Guess they’ll just have to settle for you, big guy.” I give his belly a light slap and it jiggles, earning me an irate look from Johnson as he covers his gut with one hand.
“Married?” Marshall parrots from behind us. “Man, I can’t believe it. You’re the last dude I’d expect to fall for that trap, Grayson.” He shakes his big head. “Next thing you know, one of you will confess to being gay.”
I don’t even have to be looking Rolondo’s way to know he’s gone stiff. I worry for him, wondering just how much shit he’ll get if he ever comes out, and how hard it is for him to keep his life secret. But for now, I keep my eyes on Marshall. “Careful, man, your asshole is showing.”
“What?” Marshall whips around, craning his neck to look at his ass.
And the guys laugh.
“He was being figurative,” Diaz deadpans. “As in you’re being an asshole.”
Marshall scowls, his beefy face turning red. “You know what you can kiss, D?”
But Diaz just grins and continues tying up his cleats.
We finish dressing, and Coach walks in with the staff. “Take a knee, gentlemen.”
It’s time for the pre-game talk. Now, some coaches shout and yell to rev up their team. Not our coach. He’s always calm, almost meditative. He likes philosophy, visualizing a victory, thinking in terms of mental toughness. And not one of us has ever complained. Because his methods work. He speaks, and we listen to every word.
We all drop to one knee, forming a circle around him. Coach stands in the middle, his body loose and relaxed, his voice steady and low. “So, here we are. The playoffs. It’s what we’ve worked for. What we knew we could achieve.” He looks around.
“I know each and every one of you. I know your strengths. I know your weaknesses. And if those boys have done their homework, they’ll know them too. Strengths and weaknesses. Everyone’s afraid of weakness. Don’t be. Use it to your advantage. They think you’ve got an ego to exploit? Let them think it. Twitchy on the snap if taunted? Make them believe it. Turn that weakness into your strength. Confuse them. Do the unexpected.” Coach points to his temple. “This game is as much up here as it is on that field.”
We’re silent, watching as he strolls before us. “Lot of knuckleheads in this game. Guys who think they’ll play the hero and do it all alone. But on that field…” He points toward the doors. “We play as a team, and we win as a team. Teamwork. We’re the team they all want to beat. They want our blood.” His gaze wanders over us. “Because we’re the best damn team in the nation.”
“Red Dogs!” we all shout as one.
“‘Victorious warriors win first and then go to war, while defeated warriors go to war first and then seek to win.’ Sun Tzu.” Coach’s voice rises. “Men, we’ve already won. Now go out there and get the job done.”
“Yes, Coach!” It’s a roar.
Coach’s eyes flick to mine, and he gives a small nod. Every team has their traditions, little rituals that they do before games. Ours is no different. The university tradition is to get into a mass huddle and bump our helmets together before running out on the field. Here, in the locker room, we have another one for just after Coach’s speech.
It started when I was a redshirt freshman, and I’d plugged my phone into a set of speakers, making the guys listen to music before a game. We’d crushed it that day, and, being superstitious bastards, we’d decided that we had to listen to the same song before each game.
I complete the ritual now, pulling up Radioactive by Imagine Dragons and hitting play.
Some guys close their eyes, let the pulsing music roll over them. Others kind of sway, start getting worked up, their blood pumping.