“Girlfriend? You thought you were my girlfriend?” he howls.
The pain in my chest is magnified by a thousand and I can barely stand. “No . . . I,” I start to say. I don’t know what to say.
“You did, didn’t you?” he says, laughing.
“You know . . . I did,” I admit. I am already humiliated, so I have nothing to lose. “You fed me that bullshit about wanting more, and I believed you. I believed all the shit you said to me, all the things you claimed to never tell anyone, but I’m sure that was all bullshit, too. I’m sure none of that even happened.” I shrug, giving up completely. “But you know what? I’m not even mad at you; I’m mad at myself for believing it. I knew how you were before I started to fall for you. I knew you would hurt me. What were your words, You’ll destroy me? No, ruin, you’ll ruin me. Well, congratulations, Hardin, you won,” I sob.
Pain flashes in his eyes . . . well, what looks like pain. It is probably humor.
I no longer care about winning or losing or playing these exhausting games. I turn away from him again and begin to walk back toward the house, figuring I’ll find someone’s phone to use to call Landon or somehow get a ride back to the dorms.
“Where are you going?” he asks. It hurts that he doesn’t have anything to say, that he has offered me no explanation. He has only confirmed what I already knew, that he is heartless.
I walk faster, ignoring him. He trails behind me, calling my name a couple more times, but I refuse to let myself be charmed by his voice again.
When I get back to the house’s front steps, of course I spot Molly’s pink hair outside. “Aww, look, she is waiting for you. You two really are perfect for each other,” I call over my shoulder to Hardin.
“It’s not like that and you know it,” he grumbles.
“I don’t know anything, obviously,” I snap and climb two steps at a time.
Zed appears in the doorway, and I rush to his side. “Can I use your phone? Please?” I beg and he nods.
“Are you okay? I tried to go after you, but you were long gone,” he says and I nod.
Hardin stands in front of Zed and me while I call Landon and ask him to pick me up. Zed and Hardin stare at each other for a second when they hear me say Landon’s name, then Zed looks away and back down at me. “Is he coming?” he asks, his voice full of concern.
“Yeah, he will be here in a few minutes. Thank you for letting me use your phone,” I tell him, ignoring Hardin.
“No problem. Do you want me to wait with you?” he asks.
“No, I will wait with her,” Hardin injects, his voice full of venom.
“I would love it if you could wait with me, Zed,” I say and walk back down the steps with him. Hardin, being the asshole that he is, follows us and stands behind us awkwardly. Steph, Tristan, and Molly trickle down, too.
“Are you okay?” Steph asks.
“Yeah,” I say, nodding. “I’m leaving, though. I shouldn’t have even come here.”
When Steph hugs me, Molly mutters under her breath, “You got that right.”
My head snaps around at the sound of her voice. I hate confrontation usually, but I hate Molly even more. “You’re right! I shouldn’t be here. I’m not as adept as you at getting drunk and hanging all over every guy in the place.”
“Excuse me?” she says.
“You heard me.”
“What’s your problem? Mad that I kissed Hardin? Because, guess what, sweetie, I kiss Hardin all the time,” she brags.
I feel the blood draining from my face. I look at Hardin, who doesn’t say anything. So he’s been messing with Molly the entire time? This doesn’t surprise me as much as it should. I don’t even have a comeback for her. I try to think of something to say back, anything really, but I can’t. I’m sure as soon as I walk away I will think of ten replies, but right now I have nothing.
“Let’s go inside . . .” Tristan suggests and grabs Molly and Steph by their arms. I try to give him a thankful smile as they start to go.
“You too, Hardin. Get away from me,” I say and stare at the street.
“I haven’t kissed her, I mean lately. Except for tonight. I swear,” he says.
Why is he saying this in front of them?
Molly turns around.
“I don’t really give a shit who you kiss. Now get away from me,” I repeat.
A huge wave of relief washes over me as I see Landon’s car pull up. “Thanks again,” I tell Zed.
“No problem, don’t forget what we talked about,” he says hopefully, reminding me of our supposed “date.”
“Tessa . . .” Hardin calls as I step toward the car. When I ignore him, he calls louder. “Tessa!”
“I have said everything I have to say to you, Hardin. I am done listening to you and your bullshit—now leave me the fuck alone!” I scream, turning around to face him. I am aware everyone’s eyes are on us, but I have had enough.
“I . . . Tessa, I . . .”
“You what? You what, Hardin?” I scream even louder.
“I . . . I love you!” he yells.
And all the air disappears from my lungs.
And Molly sounds like she is choking.
And Steph looks like she has seen a ghost.
And for a few moments everyone just stands there, like something alien has passed by us and left us frozen. When at last I can speak, I say quietly, “You’re sick, Hardin, you’re really fucking sick.”
Despite the fact that I know this is part of his game, it still awakens something inside me to hear those words come off his lips. I grab for the door handle on Landon’s car but I am yanked away by Hardin.