I knew we would circle back to this. In fact, part of me needed to talk about it . . . oddly. I’d barely needed to talk about my divorce, but this had me twisted in unfamiliar ways.
“I . . .” I stared down into my pint. “I don’t actually know.”
Silence fell over the table. Finally, I admitted, “She told me she has feelings for me. In fact,” I said, looking up, “she’s had them for quite some time.”
“One look at her and I knew that,” Bennett said.
“Same,” George offered.
“Ditto,” said Will.
Max was the last to chime in. “I don’t really need to say anything, now do I?”
“We nearly kissed today in the office,” I blurted, and for some reason every head whipped over to Bennett, who displayed his middle finger in a wide arc around the table. “Suffice to say it’s all moving a bit fast for me. I’ve only, well, we’ve worked together for months but I’ve only known her a matter of days.”
“So what are you going to do?” Chloe said.
“Well, I . . .” I started, and she continued to blink at me like I must be dense. “Like I said, I—”
“She told you she has feelings. You almost kissed. You said it’s all moving a bit fast, so I’m guessing that’s why you’re here and she’s not.”
“Yes,” I told her.
“So either you’re interested, or you’re not.”
“It isn’t that simple,” I said. “We work together.”
Chloe waved her hand. “None of that matters.” When everyone gaped at her, she said, “What? It doesn’t! Obviously I don’t know all the details, but from what I hear, she’s a pretty, smart girl, and eventually she’ll be noticed by someone a lot smarter than you. Don’t be an idiot.”
I laughed, taking a sip of my drink. “Cheers.”
“As usual, Chloe cuts right to the chase.” My brother put a gentle hand on my arm. “Just call her. See if she wants to come down and join us?”
Nodding, I stood and walked over to a quiet area of the bar, dialing her mobile.
As it rang, it occurred to me that I’d never called her.
That we hadn’t made plans for tonight.
That she might have made plans, and maybe Chloe was right and someone smarter had noticed.
“Hello?”
I startled, having somehow talked myself out of the possibility of her answering. Inside, I was an enormous knot.
“Hello?” A pause. “Mr. Stella?”
I shivered at the sound of her voice. “Ruby. Call me Niall, yeah?”
“Is everything okay?”
“Would you care to come down for a bite to eat?”
She hesitated on the other end, for what felt like an eternity.
“Unless you have a . . .” I paused, fumbling for words. “That is to say, an agent . . . of . . . pleasure in your room.”
Oh dear God—what did I just say?
“An agent of pleasure?” she asked, and I could hear the restrained laughter in her voice, as well as the gentle slur of alcohol.
I groaned quietly. “I mean company. Or plans. Ruby, I don’t mean to presume. I don’t even know if you’re—”
She cut me off with a quiet laugh. “It’s almost midnight. I’m alone up here, I promise. But I just got out of the tub, I’ve had a cocktail or two, and ordered room service.”
My brain tripped over the image of Ruby in the tub. Naked. Tipsy. Wet. Warm, soft skin. Muscles lax.
“Ah. Well, right.”
Ruby paused again. “I mean, I suppose I could . . .” Her words fell away.
“No, Ruby, I don’t mean to . . . I just wanted to make sure you’d eaten. It was a long day. And we . . .” I closed my eyes, murmuring, “We . . . rather, I fear you’re out of sorts.”
I could hear her breathing, so quick and shallow. I felt a tight pinch in my chest at the thought that she was anxious again, suffering in some way over me, or this. I knew I had the ability to do something for her . . . I simply didn’t know how to start.
“I’m okay, I promise. Thank you.”
We sat on the line for several long, wordless seconds. “Right, then. Good night, Ruby.”
“Good night . . . Mr. Stella.”
Returning to the table, I took my seat and lifted my second pint to my lips. I felt worse than I had before; I was bloody awful on the phone, which was saying something given that I was often awkward in person as well. When Max wordlessly asked whether Ruby would be joining us—with a small lift of his brow, an expectant expression—I shook my head. I wasn’t sure whether I was relieved or gutted that she wasn’t coming down. And then I settled on relieved, because I knew I wouldn’t be able to keep from moving to her, wishing for her hand on my leg, wanting to meet her eyes and see that the same longing was still there, and I would be shite at simply asking for it.