"Yes, after supper." Amelia looked slightly less happy because she wasn't getting the response she'd anticipated. Bob was looking from Amelia to me, and he, too, looked doubtful. He'd assumed I'd be both delighted and effusive, and that wasn't the reaction he was seeing.
"I don't know." I put my fork down. "It wouldn't hurt Eric?"
"As if anything can hurt a vampire that old," she said. "Honestly, Sook, why you're worrying about him . . ."
"I love him," I said. They both stared at me.
"For real?" Amelia said in a small voice.
"I told you that before you left, Amelia."
"I guess I just didn't want to believe you. You sure you'll feel that way when the bond is dissolved?"
"That's what I want to find out."
She nodded. "You need to know. And you need to be free of him."
The sun had just set, and I could feel Eric rising. His presence was with me like a shadow: familiar, irritating, reassuring, intrusive. All those things at once.
"If you're ready, do it now," I said. "Before I lose all courage."
"This is actually a good time of day to do it," she said. "Sunset. End of the day. Endings, in general. It makes sense." Amelia hurried to the bedroom. She returned in a couple of minutes with an envelope and three little jars: jelly jars in a chrome rack, like the kind a waitress in a diner puts on the table at breakfast. The jars were half-full of a mixture of herbs. Amelia was now wearing an apron. I could see that there were objects in one of the pockets.
"All right," she said, and handed the envelope to Bob, who extracted the paper and scanned it quickly, a frown on his narrow face.
"Out in the yard," he suggested, and we three left the kitchen, crossed the back porch, and went down into the yard, smelling the steak all over again as we passed my old grill. Amelia positioned me in one spot, Bob in another, and then positioned the jelly jars, too. Bob and I each had one on the ground behind us, and there was one at the spot where she would stand. We'd form a triangle. I didn't ask any questions. I probably wouldn't have believed the answers, anyway.
She gave me a book of matches and handed one to Bob, too. She kept a third for herself. "When I tell you, set fire to your herbs. Then walk counterclockwise around your jar three times," she said. "Stop at your station again after the third time. Then we'll say some words--Bob, you got 'em in your head? Sookie'll need the paper."
Bob looked at the words again, nodded, and passed me the paper. I could just read the script by the security light, because the evening was closing in fast now that the sun was down.
"Ready?" Amelia asked sharply. She looked older and colder in the twilight.
I nodded, wondering if I was being truthful.
Bob said, "Yes."
"Then turn and light your fire," Amelia said, and like a robot I did as I was told. I was scared to death, and I wasn't sure why. This was what I needed to do. My match struck and I dropped it in the jelly jar. The herbs flared up with a sharp smell, and then we three were upright again and moving counterclockwise.
Was this a bad thing for a Christian to be doing? Probably. On the other hand, it had never occurred to me to ask the Methodist minister if he had a ritual in place to sever a blood bond between a woman and a vampire.
And when we'd been around three times and stopped again, Amelia pulled a ball of red yarn from her apron. She held one end and passed the ball to Bob. He measured out some and took hold and then passed the ball to me. I did the same and returned the ball to Amelia, because that seemed to be the program. I held the yarn with one hand and gripped the paper with the other. This was busier than I had counted on. Amelia also had a pair of shears, and she extracted those from a pocket, too.
Amelia, who had been chanting the whole time, pointed at me and then at Bob, to indicate that we should join in. I peered down at the paper, picked my way through the words that made no sense to me, and then it was over.
We stood in silence, and the little flames in the jars died out, and the night had set in hard.
"Cut," Amelia said, handing me the shears. "And mean it."
Feeling a little ridiculous and a lot scared, but sure that I needed to do this, I snipped the red yarn.
And I lost Eric.
He wasn't there.
Amelia rolled up the cut yarn and handed it to me. To my surprise, she was smiling; she looked fierce and triumphant. I took the length of yarn automatically from her hand, all my senses stretching out to seek Eric. Nothing.
I felt a rush of panic. It wasn't entirely pure: There was some relief mixed in, which I had expected. And there was grief. As soon as I was sure he was okay, that he hadn't been hurt, I knew I would relax and feel the full measure of the success of the spell.
In the house, my phone rang, and I sprinted for the back door.
"Are you there?" he said. "Are you there, are you all right?"
"Eric," I said, my breath coming out in a great ripping sigh. "Oh, I'm so glad you're all right! You are, aren't you?"
"What have you done?"
"Amelia found a way to break the bond."
There was a long silence. Before, I would have known if Eric was anxious, furious, or thoughtful. Now, I couldn't imagine. Finally, he spoke.
"Sookie, the marriage gives you some protection, but the bond is what is important."
"What?"
"You heard me. I am so angry with you." He really meant it.
"Come here," I said.
"No. If I see Amelia, I'll break her neck." He meant that, too. "She's always wanted you to get rid of me."
"But . . ." I began, not knowing how to end the sentence.
"I'll see you when I've got control of myself," he said. And he hung up.
Chapter 9
I should have foreseen this, I told myself for the tenth, or twentieth, time. I'd rushed into something that I should have prepared for. At the least, I should have called Eric and warned him what was about to happen. But I'd been afraid he'd talk me out of it, and I had to know what my true feeling for him was.
Just at the moment, Eric's true feeling for me was anger. He was mighty pissed off. On the one hand, I didn't blame him. We were supposed to be in love, and that meant we were supposed to consult one another, right? On the other hand, I could count the times Eric had consulted me without even using up all my fingers. On one of my hands. So at other moments, I did blame him for his reaction. Of course he wouldn't have let me do it, and I would never have known something I had to know.