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Author: Samantha Towle

“The race…when will it restart?” I ask Owen.

He looks at me briefly and then back to Ben. “It’s not. They’re stopping it for now out of respect. It’s Leandro’s home country. It wouldn’t be right to continue…not until they know if he’s going to survive.”

Oh God.

My stomach drops, feeling hollow. Stopping a race happens rarely.

I only know of a few, and one was on the day my father died.

Oh God. Poor Leandro. And his family.

I know exactly what they will be going through because I’ve been through the same. My heart starts to ache for them.

But I also feel sick with guilt. Because even through the devastation I feel for Leandro and his family, I’m filled with relief that it isn’t Carrick being airlifted out of here.

“Carrick will be in soon, so get the crew ready,” Owen tells Ben.

“On it.” Ben moves away across the garage, looking somber.

When something like this happens…even if it isn’t one of your own, you feel it.

“So, you came.”

I turn my eyes to Owen. “You didn’t think I would?”

“Hoped, for Carrick’s sake. Believe it or not, I don’t know everything, Andi.”

He gives me a half smile before walking back over to the desk where my Uncle John is sitting. He’s speaking into his mouthpiece, probably to Carrick, but he looks over at me and smiles softly. A hint of sadness is in his eyes, and I know he must be thinking about my dad right now.

When I hear the roar of Carrick’s engine as he pulls his car into the pit, my legs start to tremble, my heart beating in double-time. I’m not really sure how I’m still standing right now.

I’m scared as to how he’s going to react with me being here. Especially with what’s just happened out there, I might be the last person he wants to see right now.

My heart is in my hands, ready to give itself to him. I’m hoping he doesn’t throw it away…throw me away. Because after the way I’ve treated him, I know I deserve nothing less.

I watch as Ben removes his steering wheel, unbuckling him. Then, Carrick is climbing out of the cockpit, and I’m pretty sure I’m going to throw up. My stomach is rioting. Hands shaking, I flex them at my sides.

Carrick’s back is to me. He hasn’t seen me yet. I can’t move. I’m frozen to the spot.

He pulls his helmet off and then his balaclava, and he runs his hand through his damp hair, tousling it up. It makes me ache to touch him.

Then, he turns, and his eyes collide with mine. I see the shock reverberate through them.

I wait for what seems like forever—in reality, it’s only seconds—to see what his reaction will be.

And I get nothing.

After his initial shock fades, his eyes clear and give me nothing. He just stands there, staring at me, waiting.

This is it. Here I go.

As I start to move toward him, everything and everyone disappears, and there is only him.

There has only ever been him. From the moment I saw him at Rybell, he’s always been in my sight and on my mind.

Keeping his eyes on me, he puts his helmet down on the car.

I don’t stop moving until there is less than a foot of space between us. And now I’m here, standing before him. My nerves are floundering, shaking and shredding my body and mind like I’m inside a blender.

“Hi.” My voice is small, and seeing him like this, being so close to him yet still so far, makes my emotions crash down on me. My eyes fill with tears. I blink, and one runs from the corner of my eye. I quickly brush it away with my fingers.

I see his eyes follow the movement before coming back to mine, but he doesn’t say anything.

He’s just watching me with guarded eyes. But then, among that guard, I see the tiniest spark, and it makes what I have to say just that little bit easier.

Taking a fortifying breath, I part my dry lips. “Are you okay?” I want to make sure he’s feeling okay after what just happened on the tracks with Leandro. That first, and then him and me.

“I’m not sure.”

“Why?”

“Because I don’t know why you’re here.”

Oh.

I blow out a breath, readying myself. “I’m here because…I wanted—no, I needed to see you…because I…” I’m stumbling, faltering. I’m ruining this.

Drawing my eyes away from him, I take another deep breath, and then I look back to him, trying to portray everything I feel for him through my eyes. “I came because I needed to tell you that…I love you. And I’m sorry. And I love you.”

His expression gives away nothing. “You’re sorry for what? Loving me?”

“No!” I rush to say. “I’m sorry for everything, for leaving you. I could never be sorry for loving you. You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me.”

His eyes and face are still giving me nothing, and I know it’s not enough, what I’m saying. I need to give him more, say more. I just don’t know what to say.

Why am I so bad at this?

My throat thickens as my desperation gets the better of me, and I burst into tears. I don’t care that people are around us right now. I just care that I’m ruining my last chance with him. “I’m screwing this up,” I whisper through my tears.

“I think you’re doing just fine.”

I barely get the chance to register what he said before my face is in his hands, and he’s kissing me, stealing the breath I’m beyond willing to give him. My arms instantly wrap around his neck as he takes my mouth hard and deep, pulling my body against his. The feel of his lips, his body against mine, breaks me and then puts me back together, more whole than I ever was.

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