Sick to my stomach. Jealous. Mad. She tossed out a cool, “I was all right with it.”
Dalton met her gaze head on. “Bullshit. I’m bein’ honest with you, at least have the goddamn balls to be the same with me.”
“Fine. I was upset, okay? You and Addie aren’t a good match. But how could I say that to her? How could I be negative, without giving our stupid past history as the reason for my negativity? Especially when she immediately asked me to be her maid of honor? I had to suck it up, McKay. Act like I was happy for her.”
Those blue eyes turned shrewd. “But you weren’t happy. Addie and I weren’t a good match…why? Because she’s too good for me?”
“Fuck that. You two only ended up together because you were both lonely and wanted to end that loneliness. She’d felt that way a lot longer than you. She wanted to be a wife and a mother more than anything in the world. You offered it to her so she took it.” Immediately Rory regretted blurting that out. “Sorry.”
“Sorry because it’s true?”
“Maybe.” Rory exhaled. “Look, you should’ve been honest with her when you started having doubts.”
Dalton laughed. A little hysterically.
“What?”
“Nothin’.”
“You insisted on this honesty thing, you damn well better stick to it.”
His blue eyes were fierce when he got in her face. “I had worries, not doubts, certainly not flat-out what the f**k am I doin’ thoughts prior to putting on my tuxedo last Saturday morning. I didn’t feel that doubt, that absolute wrongness of standing in front of a minister, about to promise my devotion and my life to the wrong woman until…”
Rory didn’t back down and she wouldn’t let him either. “Until…?”
“Until I looked across the altar and saw you.”
Every molecule of air left her body.
“In that moment I knew marrying her would be the biggest mistake of my life. Don’t insult me and pretend you didn’t feel it when I looked at you, Rory.”
She’d felt it. Everything she’d ever wanted from him had been right there in his eyes…as he was about to marry her best friend.
“Since I’ve had several days to do nothin’ but think about this f**king mess, I realized if you’d been here instead of in South America, I never would’ve proposed to her.”
“Omigod. You are not seriously blaming this on me, Dalton McKay.”
“I’m saying if you’d been around I would’ve been reminded.”
“Of what? Of all the great times we’ve had together in the last six years? Let’s not forget all the shitty things that you’ve done to me—”
Dalton grabbed her upper arms and yanked her closer. “Shitty things we’ve done to each other. You’re not completely blameless in this, Rory.”
She hated the truth in that statement. He’d acted; she’d reacted. She closed her eyes. “Stop. Let go of me, Dalton.”
“I can’t.”
“Why do we keep doing this to each other? You should’ve just married her and we’d be done with this.”
“No.”
“Yes.”
“No, goddammit, look at me.”
Rory lifted her chin and met his gaze.
“I’ve got no idea on how to make this right. It’s all too…raw right now.” His eyes were filled with anguish. “I won’t compound the problem and ruin a friendship between you and Addie by asking you to be with me here. Even when that’s what I want.” He reached for her ponytail, sifting the long strands through his fingers. “It’s what I’ve always wanted.”
“Don’t do this to me.”
“I can’t help it.”
“I can’t be with you anyway. My life is in Laramie, not here. I’ve got two years left before I get my master’s degree. I’ve busted my ass my entire academic life to get to this point.”
“What then?”
“I don’t know where I’ll be when I’m done with school. But I know exactly where you’ll be.”
“Where?”
“Right here.”
“Don’t be so sure of that.”
Now Rory knew he was bullshitting her. His McKay roots were sunk deep in ranching, his family and Wyoming. He’d never leave.
Except…last time they’d crossed paths, he’d mentioned feeling untethered. She thought he’d found an anchor in Addie. But now he made it sound like she—Aurora Rose Wetzler—was the missing piece in his life.
Don’t get your hopes up.
Confused by his mixed signals and the stupid girlish hope that things would work out between them like they were supposed to, she scooted off the rock.
“Rory. Don’t go.”
“I can’t stay here with you, Dalton. I need…time.”
“I get that. When can we talk again?”
“I leave for Laramie on Sunday.”
She started up the path toward her house.
“Don’t leave things like this. Please.”
When had Dalton McKay ever said please? She found herself stopping and facing him. “When do you want to talk?”
“Come by my house tomorrow night. We’ll figure it out this time. I swear.”
But she’d showed up to find him gone. No note. No text. No nothing. Just…gone.
And he’d stayed gone for over three years.
She’d been right not to trust him, not to pin her hopes on that one perfect moment they’d shared—because maybe it hadn’t been as perfect as she’d remembered.
Question was: what did he want from her now?
Chapter Three
Dalton had agreed to meet his brothers at Brandt and Jessie’s place. Things had been strained between them at the rehab hospital the previous afternoon. They hadn’t recognized him at first, and then they’d given him a rash of crap about turning into a Montana mountain man. There’d been a thread of unease in all their conversations, so it’d be interesting to see if they’d hide their hostility when they weren’t in public or whether they’d toss it down like a gauntlet.
A few things had changed at Brandt and Jessie’s house. A jungle gym, a tree house and a swing set were situated behind a new two car garage. A line of trees had been planted on the left side of the house. The expanded garden was enclosed by a five-foot-high fence. The improvements over the years allowed Dalton to forget he’d been raised here. Much happier memories were being made in the house these days.