Not trusting myself to speak, I nodded jerkily.
“Did you see those places?”
I shook my head no.
“You still want to see those places?” he asked. “I think I remember some of them. You wanted to see the Pacific Coast Highway and travel overseas. Scotland, right?”
“Right,” I whispered. My heart was doing back springs and cartwheels.
“And I think, if I remember correctly, you wanted to take a road trip on the old Route 66? Something about the world’s largest bottle?”
A soft, shaky laugh shook me. “The world’s largest ketchup bottle.”
He shook his head. “I still have no idea why you want to see that—”
“It’s a giant catsup bottle!” I explained. “Who doesn’t want to see that? They even have a festival!”
The grin was back, the kind of grin that always, always held sway over my heart. “You’re . . . adorable.”
I thought I might cry.
There was a good chance.
“Even though going to a catsup festival isn’t on my list of things to do, I would gladly take you there.” He stated this like it would happen just because he claimed it would. “We have a lot of time to do these things and we’re going to—”
I moved without thinking.
My brain just shut right down, and for one of the rare moments in my life, I wasn’t all about thinking and little else.
Bending at the waist, I cupped the sides of his face, welcoming the prickly tickle against my palms and brought my mouth to his.
I kissed Brock.
Kissed him like I’d wanted to at eighteen and kissed him in a way I never would’ve imagined at that age I’d one day be capable of.
Brock was no submissive recipient. He wouldn’t sit there and let me kiss him. That just wasn’t in his blood. He quickly took over. His hand wrapped around the back of my head and he returned that kiss fiercely. Blood immediately turned to lava in my veins. I broke the kiss, pulling back far enough to see him, and realization slammed into me. Damn it all to hell.
I was so in love with Brock again.
“From a little spark may burst a flame.”
—Dante Alighieri
Chapter 25
Oh Christ.
I really was in love with him, and if I was going to be honest with myself, I’d probably never stopped loving him. Not completely. It was why, that after two months of being back in my life, he could worm his way into my heart, firmly cementing himself there.
Realizing how strongly I felt was scary as hell, but I didn’t want to dwell on it. I didn’t want my fears and crap to hold me back in this moment, because I wanted to do something incredibly naughty considering where we were.
I don’t know what gave me the idea. Maybe it was knowing how hard he was when I walked in. It could’ve been what he said about helping me get out there and live. Or it could’ve been the fact he’d actually take me to a festival that centered around an exceedingly large catsup bottle.
It could’ve been all those things, because what I wanted to do wasn’t like me. Not at all, but I didn’t want to think about that, because what was “like me” didn’t matter.
I moved before rational thought could stop me or I could fear that someone, anyone could bust through the door. I moved before I let myself truly process that I was opening myself up to a whole world of hurting by acknowledging that I was in love with Brock.
Dropping down to my knees in front of him, I placed my hands on either side of his knees and spread them apart. His ragged inhale was like a shot of thunder as I slid my hands along the inside of his thighs, and I took a deep breath. I cupped him through the pants. He was hot and hard, straining the thin material.
“Fuck,” he groaned. His hands dropped to the arms of the chair, and when I peeked up, I saw he was white-knuckling it. He breathed heavy as I lifted my gaze to his, wondering if he’d stop me. “I’m all yours,” he gritted out.
The statement excited me beyond belief, but knowing that my touch was doing this to him, setting his jaw in a hard line and making his chest rise and fall powerfully thrilled me.
Lowering my gaze, I stroked him through his pants, reveling when he let out another rough sound. A strange and wonderful warm haze invaded me as I reached for the band. My hand shook as I tugged on his pants.
Brock rose, aiding me along as I inched his pants and the tight, black briefs down, exposing the rather impressive length.
Holy wow . . .
He was thick and long and perfect, and I . . . I wanted to taste him.
“You keep staring at me like that, this will be over before we even get started.”
The right side of my mouth curved up. “We . . . we wouldn’t want that, would we?” I wrapped my hand around the base of his cock. He kicked against my palm, burning hot and smooth like silk over steel.
His head fell back and his hips punched into my grasp. I moved my hand, slowly dragging it up and the back down. Awed and fascinated, I felt him from the base to the gleaming tip. He breathed heavily and ground out my name, “Jillian.” Tiny hairs all over my body raised as a far-off part of me never foresaw this, never could imagine that I’d be on my knees in an office, about to do what I was getting ready to.
Stretching up a few inches, I lowered my mouth, closing my lips around the tip. The salty taste of him teased my tongue. Hoping I was doing this right, I moved my hand as I brought him deeper into my mouth.
“Fuck,” he growled, hips flexing as I swirled my tongue along the broad head of his cock. “Jillian, I . . .” He seemed to lose track of what he was saying, because he swore again and his large, powerful body tightened.