I nodded, stroking his back, thrilling with terror and want. “Take me however you need.”
His body slammed into me once, twice, before he found control and stopped—vibrating with barely held restraint. “I’m so f**king scared.” His voice wavered and the plea in his eyes almost made me let him go.
Almost.
“I trust you.” I’d keep repeating it over and over again until it seeped into his psyche and freed him. “You can’t hurt the baby. Take me. I won’t ask again.”
He switched from human to animal. He let go of everything.
His h*ps pulled back before colliding with mine with a ferocity that echoed in my heart. Everything about him switched to possessive greed. His face shut down. Lips pursed. Sweat beaded.
“Don’t trust me. Don’t f**king trust me,” he growled, driving into me. Every stroke of his c**k claimed ownership and I let him steal me away.
Nothing else existed but him inside me and his hard heat above me. I locked my legs tighter, pulling him achingly deep.
His mouth latched onto my neck, sucking, biting. Sparks of gold and silver whizzed in my blood, intoxicating me—making me come back to life.
“Yes. Take me,” I panted as Roan drove violently into me. Every thrust he lost himself until I didn’t know which man I held. Obsidian Fox or Roan Averin.
The bed screeched across the floor, the bedding slip-slided all over the mattress as he took everything I had to offer. He was right.
It wasn’t gentle. It wasn’t sweet. It was dirty and cruel and broken.
But I couldn’t get enough.
His hands landed on my hips, holding me in place as he increased his rhythm. His face twisted until he looked furiously angry.
My heart no longer beat—it hummed like a hummingbird as every thrust unlocked a power deep inside me. A power over this man. Over my fate. Over my sadness and happiness and future.
Love swelled like a typhoon in my chest, evolving, growing until it filled every space and cavity. I visualized love protecting the new life inside me—spreading to Roan and healing him. It kept growing until my body had no more space and it exploded out of me, showering us both in emotion.
“God, I—I can’t stop.” Roan reared back, his face shiny with sweat. “I’m hurting you. God, I’m sorry. So damn sorry.” His eyes were wild, skin ashen. “The baby. Make me stop. Make me f**king stop.” His teeth gritted as he drove particularly hard into me.
My body sparked with electricity, static crackled between us. I couldn’t stop. Not when I was so close to falling over the precipice of a release I desperately wanted.
This was between me and him.
Life and death.
Possession and ownership.
I threw my head back. “You’re not hurting me. I trust you.”
“Stop saying that!” He groaned, increasing his rhythm until I felt sure I’d snap in two. “Don’t trust me. Never trust me.”
His guttural moan vibrated through his chest as the first ripple of need travelled down his cock, massaging me with the fierceness of his impending orgasm.
My body clenched, tightened, wound. Taking me out of this stratosphere and placing me on a shooting star. A comet where everything was happy and perfect and there was no tragedy or sadness.
A star.
Her star.
Grief tried to steal me from his embrace and I clamped my eyes shut. Focusing only on his heat and vitality. The more Roan took me, the more he pulled away. Our bodies were connected but our souls had lost each other.
I needed to find him again.
To finish what we’d started.
“More. Please, more.” I wrapped my arms around his shoulders, dragging him back against me. He moaned as his entire body went bow-string tight, landing on top of mine. His h*ps pistoned as I held on, never letting him go. Our breathing mingled, panting out of control.
Every stroke was delicious; every motion sent me higher up the mountain of claiming the most incredible orgasm of my life.
I relished in the fierceness of him, the absolute ownership of his body on top of me. Full body contact. Something completely new.
I loved hugging him.
I loved being blanketed by him.
The first spindle and body-shivering band of my release teetered just out of reach. I dug nails into his ass, curving into him, meeting his every thrust.
Roan cried out with all the torture in the world—lost in whatever mind-warp he suffered. “I—I f**king love you,” he snapped, violence tinging every part of him.
That was all I needed.
The knowledge he loved me gave me the strength to brave the unknown future. Gave me the courage to love another just like I’d loved Clara.
I came.
I unravelled and combusted all in one go. The orgasm wasn’t just in my pu**y; it existed in every blood cell, in every breath I took, in every part of me. On and on the waves rolled, mimicking the crashing surf outside.
“Yes. Yes. Don’t stop.”
“I’ll never stop.” His mouth found mine in a battle of lips. He poured struggle, love, and commitment right into my heart.
I felt complete.
I hadn’t even known I was missing something until he gave me everything he was.
I’d never be free of him. Just like he’d never be free of me.
I cried out as the contractions of my release squeezed around his cock. He shivered and thrust harder. “I’m coming. Damn I’m f**king coming.”
Roan came apart.
His thrusts lost uniformity, driving relentlessly, seeking pleasure, seeking a release. “Take me. All of me.” His orgasm tore down his back, rippling like a powerful wave over his muscles. He spurted deep inside, splash after splash.
My release kept going, intensifying as our life mingled. I found, for one brief second, eternal happiness.
Gradually, Roan slowed before coming to a gentle rock. He collapsed on top, his c**k twitching deep inside. His breathing was ragged and his heartbeat thudded through me like a heavy drum.
He sounded as if he’d run a gauntlet and barely survived.
“Are you okay?” I whispered.
He snorted. “Once again you ask about my wellbeing when I’m the one who just f**ked you like a beast.” He looked up with desolate eyes. “Can you forgive me for taking you like that? Today of all f**king days. I should’ve kissed you and made sweet gentle love rather than bruise you like the bastard I am.”
My hand cupped his cheek. His entire body quaked and his forehead furrowed with deep tracks. Our hearts thudded so hard the bed trembled with every pulse, completely out of rhythm, racing to a crazy beat.